Kodiak - Wonder If You Wonder (feat. Nova Ransom Loyal) Lyrics

Falling apart dealt some bad cards
I wish you were careful my heart
You should have been gentle with it way back at the start
It's hard to move on so I'll write a new song
Then I'll put on a smile
Walk pass you laugh with you
Text you like nothing's wrong

Yea what happened with us
Got my feelings bottled up
I don't wanna lose you but I feel like I'm draining our trust
My bottle's blowing up and theres nothing left
Feelings turned to dust
What I do is not enough so just kill me with a gun
Cuz the feeling is the same I just need time to adjust

Wonder if you wonder how I feel
Cry myself to sleep thinking this isn't real
For many months I've had enough
It hurts
I'm running after somebody who never really cared about
Wonder if you wonder how I feel
Cry myself to sleep thinking this isn't real
For many months I've had enough
It hurts
I wonder if you wonder what we could have had together
Just leave

And I take the heartbreak like it's drugs
Numb through the pain till the damage doNe
Tired of feeling like I'm never enough
Ngf you never gave ah f*ck
And I wonder if you wonder if we were for life
You doNe put them feelings oN the side
It was all lies

And every night I got these demons that haunt me till the morning light
Jealous i can't get a break from it but still I keep up the fight
I wish you'd try
Like I miss you come and hold me tight

Wonder if you wonder how I feel
Cry myself to sleep thinking this isn't real
For many months I've had enough
It hurts
I'm running after somebody who never really cared about
Wonder if you wonder how I feel
Cry myself to sleep thinking this isn't real
For many months I've had enough
It hurts
I wonder if you wonder what we could have had together
Just leave

Dark skies hang above cuz I'll give you all my love and then I will watch it drift away
Dark skies hang above cuz your love if like a drug
I wish I could hold you all night long

And all these feelings that I get every time I see your face
They take me back to when I thought we were perfect
Wish I could change
I want this all to end
Don't get pleasure calling you a friend

Wonder if you wonder how I feel
Cry myself to sleep thinking this isn't real
For many months I've had enough
It hurts
I'm running after somebody who never really cared about
Wonder if you wonder how I feel
Cry myself to sleep thinking this isn't real
For many months I've had enough
It hurts
I wonder if you wonder what we could have had together
Just leave

Do you miss me
What do you think of me
Do you miss me
Wondering what you think of me
All this time ignoring me