Kolo - The Recluse Lyrics

Too detached
I told my family I love them but my actions never show it
Too concerned with streaming numbers it's the curse of my devotion
Locked in the basement, so my doors are never open
On the hunt to be the greatest so it's hard to be emotive
I ain't checking up on you as much as I did
I see your life through the stories that you post 'bout your trips
I love you cuzzo even the words don't come from my lips
We rarely talk face to face like I'm doing bid
For you I never find time, I'm just lost in my grind
Push myself to the brink, my limits never defined
Will this always be life for me 'Imma pray for a sign
I just look to the sky, like the seats are reclined
How did I become this way, so alone and detached
My yearning for connection is a ghost of the past
All the bonds I made are gasoline, they burning too fast
All the bridges I was building were so quick to collapse
When your family ask for help tell me how your react
Tell the truth, you wish they'd never pop your bubble, in fact
You self-centered so worried 'bout your career
Not turning out to be legend the deepest of all your fears
But there's something worse, not being there for your peers
Not loving those that love you, you'd rather just be revered
The penalty is harsh, you pay it when heaven's near
Don't long to disappear 'cause one day you'll disappear, yeah

Yeah this like the third time I called
I wanna make sure, uh, you're good and everything is alright
I know you're busy
But yeah, uh,
You know I hit a thousand subscribers on my YouTube and me and the fam we went to go celebrate and everything and I know you couldn't have, couldn't, couldn't made it, make it, but um, yeah.
Hope everything is going well.
Call me when you can man. Miss you.

I told my lady that I love her but my actions never show it
Too concerned with IG clout, to call me lover's a misnomer
I have to return to you our moments that I've stolen
When you try to call, I'm Mr Busy, you feel hopeless
Our love is a fire that the arctic ice is over
And the snow keeps falling and the wood is running lower
So our igloo's colder, I depart to where its warmer
And leave you on your own, the hypothermia is horror
So far away from shopping sprees at Sephora
Date nights at the pier, long walks at the park
And it's all my fault cause I switched up my decorum
Telling you I loved you then I pick the mic before you
I was always driven, now my tank is more enormous
My eyes light up for the deals with corporate sponsors
Your eyes dimmer 'cause the profit equals losses
To make up for the gap your heart just puts in more deposits
Of this I wasn't conscious, 'til we started arguing
More we were at odds, the more I kept being awarded
You start withdrawing, 'cause you were disregarded
More money for me but your love I can't afford it
This the price that I paid
Disconnected from your needs cause I'm slave to the game
And success won't mean much when I'm dead in the grave
I'm just hoping we can reconnect before it's too late


Hey Kolo. I know you're busy recording.
Just wanted to let you know that there's been a lot on my mind.
And I think we should talk.
I been feeling like things are off, but maybe it's just me.
I don't know, I just miss how it used to feel.
Call me back.