Korcid - Diary Entry Lyrics

Hey what's up, my name's Korsid
I want to thank you in advance for taking time out of your day to experience my project
This is the poem that inspired the whole album, and I just want to share my message I have for God

So without any further ado, let's get into it
I fear no man, deity, or any form of incarceration
The only things I fear are the memories I drink to escape from
So f*ck love with everything wrapped up in it

I'd much rather sell my soul to get rich than die lonely naked
Before I ever considered the thought, you only noticed my image, not my personality
Nor my spirit of winning
I've crossed many roads and obstacles for those I've claimed as my own, and I regret

That shit as the days go on
Regardless if you're my mom, spouse, or son, caring or being nice got me nowhere in
Life, and I'd much rather hang those thoughts up in the rain to dry
I've earned every scar, even the nine burn marks I left on my right arm, as a reminder

To choose myself for once when it gets dark
You know, I always thought being sober was easier
Turns out I just missed the poisonous liquid
After quitting though, it left me full of anxiety and I can't stop shaking

Thank god for the bottle misplacement
Reminiscing life is like a fixed game, I so sabotage, causing myself nothing but anger
And pain
Maybe it's just the thrill, or the way I look when I hold a knife

F*ck, man
Maybe it's the dedication I put into every thought on how I want to die
Because let's face it, I'm the only one that ever gave a f*ck about my life
You know, maybe when the truth comes, I'll finally know the reasons why

I never once attempted to live my life
I still haven't even acknowledged one f*cking accomplishment
You know, thinking about it, I was probably stumbling drunk when I took my first step
If you can't understand or comprehend the dark side of my mind, then I don't want you

To ever applaud for me when I finally get a grip on life
So stay on that sinking ship, don't switch up, because all in all, my response will be
Eat a dick
So f*ck the free world and everybody in it