Korcid - Shadow Lyrics

We are born with this dependency into a family that will socialize us into a society
They will teach us that some aspects of ourselves are loved and accepted
Our family will judge and reject all of the aspects of us
They find unacceptable whether they are positive or negative

And will encourage those they find acceptable
And with being relationally dependent, in order to survive
We will do whatever we can to deny and disown those aspects in ourselves that we're disapproved of
While we will be exaggerating those that were met with approval

I keep both of my eyes locked in the hourglass of the past
I'm blind to the present where shadows of my history shall cast
In the rearview mirror of life, my visions dance
Nostalgia's wait, an invisible, haunting trance

I want to sell my soul for confidence, so I can reach all of my accomplishments
Gain in more than just respect
My life will eventually be mentioned with a positive breath
Though after my dance with death, I got denied upon entry

It's sad when the devil wouldn't even provide me with a minimum of pity
With a flip of his penny, it landed on heads
He nudged my shoulder, even smirked and said
Guess what dog? I'll give you another chance

So go ahead and make what's best with it
So that's why I'm sharing my music with a friend
I hope you're doing okay though, I'm just comfortably depressed

I'm breaking through the shadows of the past
In the echoes, I'm finding strength that will forever last
Rising like a phoenix, I face the dance
In the symphony of survival, I take my chance
Comfortably depressed, yet I strive to be
A melody of resistance, a soul set free

In this maze of emotion, I'm lost without a guide
Navigating through life's storms with uncertain tides
Here lately, I feel fake, an authentic piece of paper that never shaped

I'm stuck in a matrix, relentless, unforgiving mindset
Surviving death's shadow, my tale's untold
In job interviews, my past unfolds
Exposed in Heartland's embarrassment

Those stupid pricks are incompetent when it comes to counting medications
Typing in a Google search will unveil my history
Ashland County livestreamed just for the publicity

Applauding a pig that couldn't even assist me
Yet I only seek redemption, resolving with only judgment and misery
Yet like a phoenix from ashes, I strive to break free

My silent screams echo my plea for empathy
In a world turning away, my resilience is tested
In the symphony of survival, every note I seem to write is f*cking contested

I'm breaking through the shadows of the past
In the echoes, I'm finding strength that will forever last
Rising like a phoenix, I face the dance

In the symphony of survival, I take my chance
Comfortably depressed, yet I strive to be
A melody of resistance, a soul set free
The fact is, you reap what you sow, then you pay what you owe

So when your heart and mind collide, resolve the conflict by using your guts for guidance
I've always placed everyone else above myself
That's the origin, this is my best encouragement
Stop placing the negative as the narrative

Replacing every positive as only a possible what-if
You'll never achieve success with nightmares
That's why I scribble these f*cking thoughts on paper, just to fight my fears
The anger has led me down many roads I regret

That bottle of alcohol though, it pretty much raised my bed
Missing organs with an embarrassing scar
When I look in the mirror, worry I lost who you are
You weren't brave, you caved in

By listening to all the negative shit they would say
I can't blame it all on you though, even I enjoy jumping through puddles in the rain

The important thing to have in mind is, that when we suppress a certain aspect of ourselves
It does not disappear, it does not go away with time

It only fades from our awareness
We fall into sane behaving patterns, self-destructive behaviors, and all because of our shadow