Kota - Ease my mind Lyrics

I get high all the time just to ease my f*ckin' mind
Room full of people, yet, still no one by my side
Swerving' through some lanes, contemplatin' will I die
Dodging' all the questions that been tearing' up my mind
Steady wasting time, All the years flyin' by
Addiction by my side, devils steady talkin' nice
Still I'm hangin' by a string, where's the joy that said it brings
With the gold and shiny things, poppin' shit that make you get
Haven't to slept up in a week
Till the day they, put me in my grave, all day back to a solemn
Place all the things I didn't say, wishin' for some better days
While the liquor drown the pain, lungs hurtin' from the blaze
Life's like a rat race, we just crabs in a bucket
I'm the type to scream, f*ck it, never really feelin
Lovin', guess I turned into a druggie, did I really mean
Somethin' made it here, I guess I'm lucky, no heart steady
Thuggin', I'm so tired, I've been runnin', hit his chest and now he's bloody