K.O.T.D - for when i go Lyrics

Boy go to bed
You got class
In the morning

I'm tryna be honest with you
I'm not honest with myself
But when i'm around you shawty
I'm best version of myself

I ain't mean to block ya shawty
Hope you know i'm not so well
But if we stop talking shawty
Always hope you doing well

Momma don't know much bout mari
Locked up in the f*cking cell
Knew this life shit was a test
But I f*cking failed

Eventually we'll speak sometime
Is what you say to me
You shoulda stayed and spent the night
You shoulda stayed with me

Cause when I close my eyes tonight
I hope I stay asleep
And then i'll be okay
Cause nobody was saving me

I started taking drugs
Cause I thought it was saving me
I wanted to open up But my close
My mouth and I don't speak

Nobody know what I gone thru
It's been hard
Tryna fight
Fight bout what I gone thru

No I handled our lil situation wrong
But I didn't mean to do ya wrong
I didn't know what you
You was going through

I hope you know but it's hard
For me to talk to you
It's hard for me to talk to you
Cause I got feelings for you

And things in the past
That I hold in
Burn inside like hell

Nobody, nobody know
How I feel
This is a cry out for help
If you hear

Shawty I want you to know this
Yeah i'm sorry
That I closed my heart
When yours was open

And I know i'm standoffish
I don't show emotion
But I hold it all in
But I hold it all in

I can't hold it all in
I can't hold it all in
But I gotta hold it in
But I gotta hold it in

For my mama
For my pops
For my sister
For lil ken

To lil shawty
Yeah I hope
Yeah I hope
We meet again

But I think my stories over
Yeah I think my stories written
And I hope that you know
That I loved you baby

And if we don't talk
I hope you call me maybe
I hope that we speak
Eventually Baby

Five in the morning
Five in the morning
In talking to you

Five in the morning
I'm tryna Tell you
The truth

I ain't mean to do you wrong
I ain't mean to be too rude
But the drugs start to take control
I don't wanna seem too rude

Hard for me to express myself
Feelings burn inside
It feel like hell

Nobody know i'm not
Doing well
Tried time and time
And still I fail

I was only tryna make shit right
I ain't wanna, I ain't want us to fight
You the reason that I can't sleep at night
Cause I'm tryna figure out why

Momma don't know
How I said I been
I'm fighting for my life
Hoping I win

I might f*ck around
And cut off my friends
Cause who gon love me
When this life shit end.