Lael - Song of the One (feat. Nia Allen) Lyrics

I sit with this vision of me
In a place where I'm better (eh)
But know that I ain't
Cause I came from a place
Where the game is a set up
Been chasing that grace
But hiding my face
Cause I can't even get up
Stuck on this level
Shame on the devil
Got me again
Grabbing my shovel
Digging my hole
Out of control
Out of my mind man I'm out on my own
I been lying to everyone
Out on the road
I been trying to get home
But don't know where to go
I spent too many years on this journey to nothing
Drinking and fighting and smoking and cussing
Cheating and hustling
Suffering daily
Soul is on fire
Somebody save me
Somebody talk to the Lord for me please
Cause I think He don't listen when I'm on my knees
Can you intercede
Can you set me free
Can you give me reason to really believe
I know He got 99 problems to follow
And I am the one that decided to run
And even with all of my sin and my sorrow
He gave me the blood of His son
But what for
To throw it away
I remember when I had no where to stay
I remember my kids in the motel
When I was just drinking my check away
See this was my version of reckless love
My confession man this ain't no over dub
My confession man this ain't no over dub
I just don't know where to go
Cause I've been out here on my own
I want to come home
Please help me Lord
So I dunked in that water
In front of them people
To show 'em that I'm a believer
But the truth is I'm scared as I ever was
I don't know who I am or what Heaven does
I don't know what I'm s'posed to be sayin now
Am I supposed to be praying now
I just need to hear from you Father God
Keep my babies near to you Father God
Tomorrow I might get some news that I don't wanna hear
And I'm dreading it deeper (eh)
See my daughter might be going through some'n serious
What is this secret she keeping (eh)
I'm so good at just being a home wrecker
But failing at being connected
I'm used to my version of reckless
Lord I just need you to keep her protected (yes)
See this is that part of the song
Where I throw up my hands
And I give it away
I don't deserve it
But she don't either
So please help my baby
And show her the way
As a father and man
I made my mistakes but I know Your purpose is great
I been a hundred miles and running all of my life
But You chasing me everyday
I just don't know where to go
Cause I've been out here on my own
I want to come home
Can You help me Lord
And I hear You say
Child you've been covered by grace
And you already know the way
Even though you have strayed
It's gonna be ok
(I thank You)
Even though I am still ashamed
(I thank You)
And there's no one but me to blame
And my tank is on empty
I'm still feeling guilty
I wish I could say that I call your name
(I thank you)
When I cry all alone and
(I thank you)
I just don't feel at home
And I'm so uncomfortable in my skin
And depression is pulling me in
And I don't know why I keep feeling like this
Something keep pulling me back in the deep
Waters again like I'm caught in a dream
And I dont know how to wake up from the sleep
All my energy all my enemies
All the things I been feeling I can't take
I just can't wait till you take it away
While I pray for the pain to escape
I just don't know where to go
Cause I've been out here on my own
I want to come home
Can You help me Lord
Oh I hear You say
Child you've been covered by grace
And you already know the way
Even though I have strayed
It's gonna be ok