Lauren - My So-called Life Lyrics

About to burst
violence seeping through my cracks
i bottle up the pain
cover up my sorrow with a couple of laughs
Smiling outside (and im)
crying inside(and im)
losing faith in what i feel (oh)
this hurt can't be real
Living in my so-called life
trying so hard not to cry
theres so much i lock up inside
the good things in my life have died
im losing losing myyy mind
Im falling down
and i can't seem to pick myself up
everytime i find a good thing for me
i lose it and get stuck in a rut
Smiling outside (and im)
crying inside (and im)
losing faith in what i feel (oh)
this pain it cant be real, oh it cant be real
Living in my so-called life
trying so hard not to cry
so much i lock up i bottle inside
the good things in my life have died
loooosing my mind
Hide behind my wall of shame
im tired of playing this game
i try to let my saddness out
but theres everything to lose and nothing to gain
Ive lost my will to live
suicidal but i'm in denial
in the mirror i see a broken child
but yet i hold on, yeah i hold on
Just livin in my so-called life
trying so hard not to cry (i cry)
hurts to breathe
just livin in livin on, livin in my so-called life
livin on i wont cry
i let my feelings out from inside
and the good things in my life keep me alive
in my so-called life