Lauv - how i'm feeling Album Lyrics

Another life, another story
She walked out, said I was boring
About 3 AM, that's when I called my friends
We hit the bar, sent myself flying
Shit, I said I'm never trying
'Til the bitter end, but every now and then
I wonder what it feels like to be more than I am

I traded all my friends for drugs and the internet
Ah, shit, am I a winner yet?
Look quick, is he a winner yet?
Mom's back home with a drink and a cigarette
I traded all my friends for drugs and the internet
Ah, shit, am I a winner yet?
Look quick, hasn't hit him yet
Mom's back home with a drink and a cigarette

Ooh, ooh
Still hasn't hit him yet

And I don't wanna base my actions
On reactions or the things they say
And I don't wanna hit delete
On all the parts of me that they might hate
So now I'm laying in my bed
And I can't get out my head
It's all because, all because

I traded all my friends for drugs and the internet
Ah, shit, am I a winner yet?
Look quick, is he a winner yet?
Mom's back home with a drink and a cigarette
I traded all my friends for drugs and the internet
Ah, shit, am I a winner yet?
Look quick, hasn't hit him yet
Mom's back home with a drink and a cigarette

Ooh, ooh
Still hasn't hit him yet
Ooh, ooh
Still hasn't hit him yet

(Ooh)
I sold my soul (ooh)
And all I got (still hasn't hit him yet, ooh)
Likes from strangers, love on the internet (ooh)
Drugs and the internet
I wonder what it feels like
To be more than I am, I am

She was sixteen the first time
She had her heart broken
Truth is, I've never had mine

Now she goes on vacation
In expensive places
To get away from her mind

I don't mean to be rude
There's things in myself that I see in you

Lonely eyes
She had those lonely eyes
I only know 'cause I have them too
Lonely eyes
No, you don't have to hide
The things you feel inside, I feel too

'Cause I'm lonely just like you
'Cause I'm lonely just like you

Bask in all of the silence
In between our eyelids
Where you are, I'm right there too
We might speak different languages
And we might have differences
But where you are, I'm right there too

I don't mean to be rude
There's things in myself that I see in you

Lonely eyes
She had those lonely eyes
I only know 'cause I have them too
Lonely eyes
No, you don't have to hide
The things you feel inside, I feel too

'Cause I'm lonely just like you
'Cause I'm lonely just like you
'Cause I'm lonely just like you
(Oh)

Stay the night, stay the week
When you're gone, I don't sleep
When you're gone, I feel weak, oh
Stay the night, stay the week
When you're gone, I don't sleep
When you're gone, I feel weak, oh

Lonely eyes
She had those lonely eyes
I only know 'cause I have them too (oh)
Lonely eyes
No, you don't have to hide
The things you feel inside, I feel too

'Cause I'm lonely just like you (oh)
(Da da da da, da da da da)
I'm lonely just like you (oh)
(Da da da da, da da da da)
I'm lonely just like you
Stay the night, stay the week
(Da da da da, da da da da)
When you're gone, I don't sleep
(I'm lonely just like you)
When you're gone, I feel weak, oh
(Da da da da, da da da da)

I wish that you and I lived in the Sims
We could build a house and plant some flowers and have kids
But we're both at some trashy Halloween party downtown
And I'll probably never see you again
I wish that we lived on a VHS
I'd erase the things I said and that I'll probably say again
Hit rewind on all the times I got lost in my head
But I guess I'll never see you again
I'll probably never see you again

Ooh, goddamn
I wish we would've met on another night, baby
Maybe, then
I wouldn't have let you leave me
Yeah, ooh, goddamn
I wish we would've met on another night, baby
In another life, baby
In another

I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let you
I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let

I wish that we met walkin' round the MoMA (MoMA)
Yeah, I'd say, "Nice to meet you," 'stead of sayin', "Nice to know you"
I'd try to impress you with some bullshit 'bout Monet
At least I wouldn't be too drunk to stay
And I wouldn't have let you slip away

Ooh, goddamn
I wish we would've met on another night, baby
Maybe, then
I wouldn't have let you leave me
Yeah, ooh, goddamn
I wish we would've met on another night, baby
In another life, baby
In another, uh

I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let you
I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let
I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let you
I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let

I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let you
I wouldn't have let you, I wouldn't have let you leave me

Midtown, almost got a place out in Midtown
Instead I took a plane out of this town
And missed out on us
Wasted, and all of my regret, I can taste it
If I had a time machine I would take it
And make it back to us

Now I'm reminiscing 'round the clock
Wish that I could make it stop
Didn't know it then but now I know
All this time, I, I

Shoulda believed in us
While we existed
'Cause now the whole thing's f*cked
And just a figment of my imagination
If I could bring it back I would
But it's just way too late for that
Shoulda believed in us
Shoulda believed in us, oh, oh, whoa

And I wish I would've been patient
Instead of letting all of your motion
Stunt emotions with you

'Cause now I'm reminiscing 'round the clock
Wish that I could make it stop
Didn't know it then but now I know
All this time, I

Shoulda believed in us
While we existed
'Cause now the whole thing's f*cked
And just a figment of my imagination
If I could bring it back I would
But it's just way too late for that
Shoulda believed in us
Shoulda believed in us, oh, oh, whoa

Shoulda believed in us
Shoulda believed in us, oh, oh, whoa

If I could bring you back I would
But it's just way too late for that
Shoulda believed in
If I could bring you back I would
But it's just way too late for that

Shoulda believed in us
While we existed
'Cause now the whole thing's f*cked
And just a figment of my imagination
If I could bring you back I would
But it's just way too late for that
Shoulda believed in us
Shoulda believed in us, oh, oh, whoa

Do you have dreams of a sailor, or an astronaut?
Nobody told 'em the world was mean
Do they go up in the trailer?
And nobody die, he could amount to anything
But I know, he won because he has a heart of gold
Woah, oh-oh

Hey, oh-oh, well look who's laughing now
'Cause Billy bought a brand new house
To all the people that were mean
He just channeled your energy
And hey, oh-oh, well look who's laughing now
Yeah he said "Thank you for your doubts"
To all the people that believed
He just channeled your energy

Billy woke up in a Tesla
At twenty three, he didn't think he earned the right
Then Billy got down under pressure
At twenty four, he couldn't go to bed at night
'Cause he saw the world come crashing down the way it does
Woah, oh-oh

Hey, oh-oh, well look who's laughing now
'Cause Billy bought a brand new house
To all the people that were mean
He just channeled your energy
And hey, oh-oh, well look who's laughing now
Yeah he said "Thank you for your doubts"
To all the people that believed
He just channeled your energy

Now Billy, is free
It's Billy, oh-oh-oh
It's Billy, it's Billy, it's Billy
Oh-oh, oh-oh, alright, woo

Is my love too much, or is it just enough
For you, for you?
'Cause it's gettin' late, would you like to stay?
Ah, 'cause I'm bad at readin' signs

But I, I wanna do whatever you wanna do
If you wanted to, girl, we could cross that line
Know we've been friends and love only knows broken ends
Yeah, that's what you said, but girl, let me change your mind

Mm, mm
Mm, 'cause feelings are hard to find
Mm, mm
Mm, feelings are hard

But I feel 'em in my chest, a tiny war within
But when I pull you closer, girl, I can't explain

But I, I wanna do whatever you wanna do
If you wanted to, girl, we could cross that line
Know we've been friends and love only knows broken ends
Yeah, that's what you said, but girl, let me change your mind

Mm, mm
Mm, 'cause feelings are hard to find
Mm, mm
Mm, feelings are hard, yeah

And I know, and I know that it hurts sometimes
That it hurts sometimes when I'm with you
And I know, and I know that it hurts sometimes
That it hurts sometimes, but I miss you
And I know, and I know that it's on your mind
That it's on your mind when I kiss you
But I wanna do whatever you wanna do

I wanna do whatever you wanna do
If you wanted to, girl, we could cross that line
Know we've been friends and love only knows broken ends
Yeah, that's what you said, but girl, let me change your mind

Mm, mm
Mm, 'cause feelings are hard to find
Mm, mm
Mm, feelings are hard to find, yeah

Waking up in your bed
It's almost like I've been here forever
I'm obsessed with your brain
And I'd unfold it if you let me

What if we move to Canada?
And buy some things we don't need
Bring your mother's dog, your
Paintbrush and some candy
And when they talk about those
People who up and leave
That could be us
That could be you and me

How you talk with your hands
And how you sigh like a movie
And we got luck so bad, we have to laugh
I guess we're lucky that
We don't need much outside of us, do we?

What if we move to Canada?
And buy some things we don't need
Bring your mother's dog, yeah
Paintbrush and some candy
And when they talk about those
People who up and leave
That could be us
That could be you and me

That could be you and me
That could be you and me
That could be you and me

So why don't we move to Canada?
And buy some things we don't need
Bring your mother's dog, your
Paintbrush and some candy
And when they talk about those
People who up and leave
That could be us
That could be you and me

Move to Canada
And buy some things we don't need
Bring your mother's dog, your
Paintbrush and some candy
And when they talk about those
People who up and leave
That could be us
That could be you and me

That could be you and me

I send you pictures all the time
Of our friends when they're too drunk and telling stories
I keep you right here in my brain
Even when we're waking up in different cities

I know it's hard to feel so close to someone that's so far away

But for now, I'll love you through the phone
And for now, our friends will fill this home
I'm really gonna miss you, but I'll kiss you through the screen
For now, 'til you come home to me

In the shadow of the moon
Found the memory of that night we were in Portland
Or the moment I told you
That no matter where we are, you're still my best friend

I know it's hard to feel so close to someone that's so far away

But for now, I'll love you through the phone
And for now, our friends will fill this home
I'm really gonna miss you, but I'll kiss you through the screen
For now, 'til you come home to me

I'm really gonna miss you but I'll kiss you through the screen
And if I had a candle I would wish you back to me
And next time that I see you I'll make sure you never leave
But for now, just come home to me

Small talk, no conversation
That look makes me impatient
I can't tell what you're thinkin'
Please tell me what you're thinkin'
Last night we were more than fine
Just tell me if you changed your mind
If you changed your mind

'Cause I'm all, I'm all in
I'm callin', no answer
But you text me when you feel like
When it feels right to you
But I'm all, I'm all in
I'm fallin' faster
But if you're looking at me
With a heart of doubt

Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house
All caught up in your feelings
Don't run me 'round and 'round
Don't build me up just to let me down
Just to let me down, down, down (ayy)
Don't mess with my head
Don't tell me you're falling
With your feet still on the ledge
I'm all out of breath
Baby, don't run me 'round and 'round
Don't kiss me, no, don't kiss me right now
On your lips, just leave it
If you don't mean it

Oh, yeah
You know you got me in the palm of your hand
But I love those hands
Oh, yeah
But you only let me hold you when he can't
Yeah, I don't understand

'Cause I'm all, I'm all in
I'm callin', no answer
But you text me when you feel like
When it feels right to you
But I'm all, I'm all in
I'm fallin' faster
But if you're looking at me
With a heart of doubt

Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house
All caught up in your feelings
Don't run me 'round and 'round
Don't build me up just to let me down
Just to let me down, down, down (ayy)
Don't mess with my head
Don't tell me you're falling
With your feet still on the ledge
I'm all out of breath
Baby, don't run me 'round and 'round
Don't kiss me, no, don't kiss me right now
On your lips, just leave it
If you don't mean it

Hurry home, let's never leave the house
(But you don't mean it)
Let's stay in bed while all our friends go out
(But you don't mean it)
Why you let those words come out of your mouth?
(If you don't mean it)
You've been staring at me with a heart of doubt (ah)

Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house
All caught up in your feelings
Don't run me 'round and 'round
Don't build me up just to let me down
Just to let me down, down, down (ah)
Don't mess with my head
Don't tell me you're falling
With your feet still on the ledge
I'm all out of breath
Baby, don't run me 'round and 'round
Don't kiss me, no, don't kiss me right now
On your lips, just leave it
If you don't mean it

I been thinking that life's too short
So many friends got their life cut short
Now I'm standing here doing lines in the bathroom
I hate myself, but I felt like I had to

(Ooh)
I been hiding pain, it's underneath
And I been up so long I'm scared to sleep
And if something weird's happening to me
Could someone please

Tell my mama that I love her
And I'm sorry for the pain
Sorry for the pain
That I caused her when I was younger
All the stress I put her under
Tell my mama that I love her
And I'm sorry for the pain
Sorry for the pain
That I caused her when I was younger
All the stress I put her under

And everybody says that I've been manic
I think they might be right, but I still manage
Lately, I been so annoyed
'Cause they think that I'm just paranoid

(Ooh)
I been hiding pain, it's underneath
And I been up so long I'm scared to sleep
And if something weird's happening to me
Could someone please

Tell my mama that I love her
And I'm sorry for the pain
Sorry for the pain
That I caused her when I was younger
All the stress I put her under
Tell my mama that I love her
And I'm sorry for the pain
Sorry for the pain
That I caused her when I was younger
All the stress I put her under

I been thinking that life's too short
So many friends got their life cut short
And I remember when I said I'd never be like this
Be like this

Tell my mama that I love her
And I'm sorry for the pain
Sorry for the pain
That I caused her when I was younger
All the stress I put her under
Tell my mama that I love her
And I'm sorry for the pain
Sorry for the pain
That I caused her when I was younger
All the stress I put her under

Oh

Oh

Oh, oh



Sweatpants and songs about her

Coffee with a little bit of alcohol

Oh no, no, don't judge me

Just 'cause I do anything to get by



Oh, without her

Xanax and a little bit of Adderall

Oh no, no don't judge me

Just 'cause I do anything to get by



Said you don't wanna know

Who I am anymore, you don't care anymore

Yeah, I can't really blame you

No, I can't really blame you



And I don't wanna know

Who you're with when you leave

It's so hard to believe

That it's been so long



Swear I still feel you on my skin

Your scent in my sheets

Feels like just last week

We were together



These days it's all

Sweatpants and songs about her

Coffee with a little bit of alcohol

Oh no, no, don't judge me

Just 'cause I do anything to get by



Oh, without her

Xanax and a little bit of Adderall

Oh no, no don't judge me

Just 'cause I do anything to get by



No motivations, I

Just wanna tell you I

I really miss you

But, baby, that's not the issue

The issue is coming back

Expecting this time will last when

We've been through this

We both know

We'll fight, f*ck then let it go

Again, again and again, again, again

'Cause deep down I still want to



Feel you on my skin

Your scent in my sheets

Feels like just last week

We were together



These days it's all

Sweatpants and songs about

Coffee with a little bit of alcohol

Oh no, no, don't judge me

Just 'cause I do anything to get by



Oh, without her

Xanax and a little bit of Adderall

Oh no, no don't judge me

Just 'cause I do anything to get by

(To get by)



(Sweatpants and songs about her)

(Coffee with a little bit of alcohol)

(Oh no, no, don't judge me)

(Just 'cause I do anything to get by)

Outlines of new eyes and visions of you
Girl, I think I need a minute
To figure out what is, what isn't
These choices and voices, they're all in my head
Sometimes you make me feel crazy
Sometimes I swear I think you hate me like, uh
I need a walk, I need a walk
I need to get outta here
'Cause I need to know

Who are you?
'Cause you're not the girl I fell in love with, baby
Who are you?
'Cause something has changed, you're not the same, I hate it

I, I'm sick of waiting for love, love
I, I know that you're not the one, one

Feelin' hypnotized by the words that you said
Don't lie to me, just get in my head
When the morning comes you're still in my bed
But it's so, so cold

Who are you?
'Cause you're not the girl I fell in love with

Who are you?
'Cause you're not the girl I fell in love with, baby
Who are you?
'Cause something has changed, you're not the same, I hate it

I, I'm sick of waiting for love, love
I, I know that you're not the one, one

Y primero dije "no", pero sí quería (woo)
Pa que te fueras me inventé cualquier tontería (hmm-hmm)
Pero después del trago cinco te di la mano y (woo)
Me gustó tanto lo malo que eras bailando (okay)

I met a girl at El Tejano (we danced)
To Spanish covers of Nirvana (we danced)
And got another margarita, she's from Reseda
I said, "I'm from wherever you're going tonight"

Yeah, drinking after dark, that's when she stole my heart
She knew my friends, that's where the story begins
Standing at the salsa bar, asked if it was mild
I was speechless but still I smiled
Took me by the hand and asked me if I had plans
I said, "Getting drunk and pretending that I can dance"
She laughed, I fell in love and there was no going back
Once you know it, yeah, you know it, that's that

I met a girl at El Tejano (we danced)
To Spanish covers of Nirvana (we danced)
And got another margarita, she's from Reseda
I said I'm from wherever you're going tonight
It's happy hour up in NoHo (we danced)
She said I never come here solo (we danced)
She bought a round of straight tequila, she's from Reseda
I said, "I'm from wherever you're going tonight"

She asked if I liked Friends, I guess that that was the test
I said, "Hell yeah, and Phoebe's the f*ckin' best"
We were standing at the salsa bar, feeling the vibration
I always find myself in random situations
Ooh, do you wanna have a little bit of fun tonight?
She said, "Ooh, I do"
Ooh, do you wanna have a little bit of fun?
Once you know it, yeah, you know it, that's that

I met a girl at El Tejano (we danced)
To Spanish covers of Nirvana (we danced)
And got another margarita, she's from Reseda
I said I'm from wherever you're going tonight
It's happy hour up in NoHo (we danced)
She said I never come here solo (we danced)
She bought a round of straight tequila, she's from Reseda
I said, "I'm from wherever you're going tonight"

Y primero dije "no", pero sí quería
Pa que te fueras me inventé cualquier tontería
Pero después del trago cinco te di la mano y
Me gustó tanto lo malo que eras bailando

Déjame, te enseño yo, que la cumbia es mía
Cuando se acabe esta canción nos vamos, ¿quién diría?
Mira que no salgo sola, pero llego sola, que estoy mejor sola, pero
We're going to my place tonight

I met a girl at El Tejano (we danced)
(I'm from wherever you're going)
To Spanish covers of Nirvana (we danced)
(I'm from wherever you're going)
And got another margarita, she's from Reseda
(I'm from wherever you're going)
I said, "I'm from wherever you're going tonight"

Said I'd never fall, I'd never fall
I'd never fall, but then I fell for you, mm
Back against the wall, against the wall
Against the wall, that's how it felt with you, mm, mm

One weekend in Portland
You weren't even my girlfriend
We were walkin' and talkin'
Then somebody said

Let's get tattoos together, something to remember
If it's way too soon, f*ck it, whatever
Give me shapes and letters, if it's not forever
Then at least we'll have tattoos together

Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm

Knew it from the moment, from the moment
From the moment that I saw you naked, mm, yeah
I could never love nobody else, nobody else
The way I loved you, baby, mm, mm

One weekend (weekend), no sleepin' (sleepin')
You weren't even my girlfriend, yeah
We were kissin', like, real kissin'
Then somebody said

Let's get tattoos together, something to remember
If it's way too soon, f*ck it, whatever
Give me shapes and letters, if it's not forever
Then at least we'll have tattoos together

Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm, tattoos together

Yeah, your cherry earrings are my favorite (favorite)
It looks so good, I had to save it (save it)
I've been hopin', prayin' we last forever
'Cause there's nothin' better than you and I

Tattoos together, something to remember
If it's way too soon, f*ck it, whatever
Give me shapes and letters, if it's not forever
Then at least we'll have tattoos together

Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm, 'cause I love you
Mm (oh)

Oh yeah
Mm, oh yeah
Mm, hm

I'm getting rid of all my clothes I don't wear
I think I'm gonna cut my hair
'Cause these days, I don't feel like me, mm
I think I'm gonna take a break from alcohol
Probably won't last that long
But Lord knows I could use some sleep, mm

Changes
They might drive you half insane but
It's killing you to stay the same but
It's all gonna work out
It's all gonna work out someday
Moments
Living with your eyes half open
You've been thinking 'bout these changes
It's all gonna work out
It's all gonna work out someday

I think I'm gonna take some pills to fix my brain
'Cause I tried every other way
But some things you can't fix yourself
But insanity's doin' the same thing over and over
And life ain't easy these days
No, life ain't easy these days

Changes
They might drive you half insane but
It's killing you to stay the same but
It's all gonna work out
It's all gonna work out someday
Moments
Living with your eyes half open
You've been thinking 'bout these changes
It's all gonna work out
It's all gonna work out someday

Na-na-na-na, na, na, na
Na-na-na-na, na, na
Na-na-na-na, na, na, na
Na-na-na-na, na, na
Na-na-na-na, na, na, na
Na-na-na-na, na, na
Na-na-na-na, na, na, na
Na-na-na-na, na, na

Changes
They might drive you half insane but
It's killing you to stay the same but
It's all gonna work out
It's all gonna work out someday
Moments
Living with your eyes half open
You've been thinking 'bout these changes
It's all gonna work out
It's all gonna work out someday

Daydream
Life feels like a daydream
And I just wish that I could wake up
I just wish that I could wake up
My mind
Whispers in the nighttime
Voices always keeping me up
Telling me that I should give up

'Cause lately, I've been in the backseat to my own life
Trying to take control, but I don't know how to

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna be sad no more
I don't wanna wake up and wonder
What the hell am I doing this for?
I don't wanna be medicated
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna go one more day
I just wanna wake up and realize
Everything's gonna be okay
I don't know how else to say it
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I'm callin' through to the other side
I'll make it through to tomorrow
'Cause that's all I can do today
Do today

'Cause lately, I've been in the backseat to my own life
Trying to take control, but I don't know how to

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna be sad no more
I don't wanna wake up and wonder
What the hell am I doing this for?
I don't wanna be medicated
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna go one more day
I just wanna wake up and realize
Everything's gonna be okay
I don't know how else to say it
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

Sad anymore
Sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna be sad no more
I don't wanna wake up and wonder
What the hell am I doing this for?
I don't wanna be medicated
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna go one more day
I just wanna wake up and realize
Everything's gonna be okay
I don't know how else to say it
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

Do you still remember
The way that we felt when we were kids?
Wonder if that place still exists, mmm

We lived for the moment
And few words are stranger to our lips
I wonder if that place still exists

Yeah, we built castles out of couches
Felt fire without matches
Made promises without fear of getting burned
Now we're always second guessing
We think happy is expensive
But every time I'm with you I re-learn

It's the invisible things that I, that I love the most
It's the way that I feel when I, when I hold you close
'Cause everything else, oh, it comes and goes
It's the invisible things that I, that I love the most
So let me hold you close
So let me hold you close

Do you remember
The last time you felt something like this?
The way that it felt when we were kids

Yeah, we built castles out of couches
Felt fire without matches
Made promises without fear of getting burned
Now we're always second guessing
We think happy is expensive
But every time I'm with you I re-learn

It's the invisible things that I, that I love the most
It's the way that I feel when I, when I hold you close
'Cause everything else, oh, it comes and goes
It's the invisible things that I, that I love the most
So let me hold you close
So let me hold you close
So let me hold you close

Way I feel and the way we kiss
Swear that nothing else
In the world exists

It's the invisible things that I, that I love the most
It's the way that I feel when I, when I hold you close
'Cause everything that was, oh, it comes and goes
It's the invisible things that I, that I love the most
So let me hold you close

The way I feel and the way we kiss
Swear that nothing else
In the world exists
'Cause I'ma cross my heart
If we both forget
To leave out the dark
And remember this
(All you need is someone, all you need is someone)

"My colleague, kinda"
"Yeah"
(When we met)
"That seems right, yeah"

When we met
I wasn't me
I was so numb
Yeah, I was so lonely

Out on the run
I wasn't free
And you came along
But you couldn't save me

My hesitation and holding my breath
I led you in to the garden of my loneliness
Wish that you left
Before it all burned down

Oh, Julia
I'm sorry what I do to you
I push and pull and mess with your head
Then get in your bed 'cause I'm weak, deep down

Oh, Julia
I wish I never lied to you
I never meant to hurt you like that
And if I could go back I'd leave you alone

When I left
I wasn't sure
That I could love
Love anymore

But my hesitation and holding my breath
I led you in to the garden of my loneliness
Wish that you left
Before it all burned down

Oh, Julia
I'm sorry what I do to you
I push and pull and mess with your head
Then get in your bed 'cause I'm weak, deep down

Oh, Julia
I wish I never lied to you
I never meant to hurt you like that
And if I could go back I'd leave you alone

I won't lie to you no more
I won't lie to you no more
'Cause I know I did before
Hope you find what you looking for

I've been thinkin' 'bout my father lately
The person that he made me
The person I've become
And I've been tryna fill all of this empty
But, f*ck, I'm still so empty
And I could use some love

And I've been trying to find a reason to get up
Been trying to find a reason for this stuff
In my bedroom and my closet
The baggage in my heart is still so dark

Modern loneliness, we're never alone
But always depressed, yeah
Love my friends to death
But I never call and I never text, yeah
La di da di da
You get what you give and give what you get, so
Modern loneliness, we love to get high
But we don't know how to come down

If I could break my DNA to pieces
Get rid of all my demons
If I could cleanse my soul
Then I could fill the world with all my problems
But, shit, that wouldn't solve them
So, I'm left here alone

And I've been trying to find a reason to get up
Been trying to find a reason for this stuff
In my bedroom and my closet
The baggage in my heart is still so dark

Modern loneliness, we're never alone
But always depressed, yeah
Love my friends to death
But I never call and I never text, yeah
La di da di da
You get what you give and give what you get, so
Modern loneliness, we love to get high
But we don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down

Modern loneliness, we're never alone
But always depressed, yeah
Love my friends to death
But I never call and I never text, yeah
La di da di da
You get what you give and give what you get, so
Modern loneliness, we love to get high
But we don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down

Modern loneliness, we're never alone
But always depressed, yeah