Lavelle777 - Lonely Lyrics

Tried to kill myself cause i'm nothing
Tried to od and stop my heart pumping
Think i'm bluffing
Tell you something
Why did god make me
He must be crazy
And it's not my family
But the money motivates me
Even though i don't see
All the blessings that he's made
And pathways that he's paved
And the music that i play
Helps take most of the pain away
But there's always some that rots there for days
And gets stuck in my chest it's something i can't contemplate
And i really really hate
All the memories that stay
And begin to create
A whole new place
And makes me feel insane
Someone help me with this pain
I just kneel and i pray
Right now i'm spewing words from my brain
And it's really dark
Not as dark as my past
But it's not that far off
It's not that far off
Bathing in gold i'm rich right now
With diamond rings and diamond crowns
I worked so hard for all of this
But i am still lonely as shit
Help me with my life
Help me with my everything
I've endured enough
It feels like someone's scissoring
Through my heart and chest
So much stress
I'm a mess
And failure that too
Me alive proves
Having faith that things will be better
Will give you f*cking blessings true
Changes your point of view
And how you start to see life
Every night i used to cry
I mean i still do sometimes
But not as bad as last year
Yall think that im a pussy right
At least im man enough
To release my pain
And not bottle it inside
I need some good friends that help me with this f*cking pain
I'm insane
And i'm not concerned with chedder
I got pain in me forever
And i'm not concerned with chedder
I got pain in me forever ever
With diamond rings and diamond crowns
I worked so hard for all of this
But i am still lonely as shit