Ensam Video (MV)

Swimming thru the sadness and pain
My favourite thing is numbing all my thoughts in a daze
I feel ashamed of the way I'm second guessing my brain
I'm still the same motherf*cker, but I'm feeling so caged by my troubles
Make me wanna grab the stainless and hang in the rubble
I don't thank god for all this shit, I'm phased
Lack of structure make it hard for me to go about my day
I erupted at my lover, so she said I can't stay, now I struggle
As I'm looking in the mirror tryna figure it out
I can either let it break me or I'm tearing it down
Got a lot of days where I don't feel like a king, tryna figure out my way
Til I realize that I'm wearing the crown
Ashamed of my past
Mistakes that I made
The people that passed
The days that I spent
Alone in this room
Who's guiding the clouds
They're over this way
I'm over this weight
Don't know what I want
But I'm here to stay
September days