Lil Rose - Karma (feat. Near) Lyrics

But it's different when you
It's different when you call me, it ain't the same no more
I still feels like I'm falling, I shouldn't say no more
It's like I'm falling
'Cause I can't help you if you can't help me
This isn't healthy, I'm hell please

I gave you everything but I got caught up
Hope you known I wasn't one for the drama
Member the future that we always talked about
Member the future that we always thought of
You could be with me when I'm making commas
I feel like I fell in love with a goddess
I miss the days when we smoked marijuana
I had to leave you so I guess it's karma
Remember in Lolla you fell the ground
You was unconscious, I ain't hear a sound
Every time I fell apart you was down
Wait 'til I see you when I'm back in town
I'll prove to you that I still care
Hate the fact that I'm still here
Being alone make me wanna take pills here
Down a whole bottle 'til my stomach start to feel weird
You was with me when I hit low points
And when I did nothing but f*cking roll joints
You saying that you over and that shit really hurt
First I feel like you f*cking threw me to the dirt
Hate to admit that I'm bad at moving on
Hate thinking bout the pills that I would utilize
Fighting for my f*cking country is do or die
I came a long way from them thoughts of suicide
Feel like you won't love me ever again
But now I guess we ain't better as friends
I told you what we had never would end
How many times did we hide from the feds
How many times did we f*ck in the car
How many times did we look at the stars
How many times did we cuddle at night
How many times did we make up from fights

But it's different when you
It's different when you call me, it ain't the same no more
I still feels like I'm falling, I shouldn't say no more
It's like I'm falling
'Cause I can't help you if you can't help me
This isn't healthy, I'm hell please

All of this shit keep on changing
All of these things in life God rearranging
Now to you I'm just a stranger
I guess you saw me as a player
You told me you'd see me later
Back when I'd smoke all them eighters
When I'd say f*ck all our haters
I always stayed loyal but I still feel like I betrayed her
Saying I love her but knowing damn well that I hate her
Watched you fall out of love through texts
You're so unpredictable, what you gon' do next
'Cause you love me today and you hate me tomorrow
Baby tell me, I need to know, my heart been hollow
Knowing you don't care's a tough pill to swallow
And your Twitter account is a tough thing to follow
I see all them tweets you be liking bout apathy
Talking 'bout how you don't care, shit is sad to me
Shit could've ended so happily
Now we're at a point where I can't tell if you moved on or if you're actually mad at me
Can't believe all of this happened because I ain't graduate from the academy
I was in agony, suffering, struggling, tumbling down cuz of gravity
Had to keep grasp of my sanity
I got all your pics in my gallery
I hate to look at 'em 'cause they remind me of fantasies
We used to have when we talked about living together forever
But now all of that shit's a fallacy
Transparency turned opacity
Dreams of us having a family crashed in reality
It's such a tragedy that if we never split up this didn't have to all end in brutality

But it's different when you
It's different when you call me, it ain't the same no more
I still feels like I'm falling, I shouldn't say no more
It's like I'm falling
'Cause I can't help you if you can't help me
This isn't healthy, I'm hell please

I'm sorry I left, there's a hole in my chest that won't ever be filled
Part of me's dead, don't know what I expected to ever fulfill
I'm losing my purpose, I don't know what's worth it, I'm losing my will
I put so much work on you but I don't feel like I earned it
I was used to the pills
I wasn't used to the happiness, I wasn't used to the thrill
I wish this shit would get black
I wish I could have you back
I wish shit was in the past
I wish this shit wasn't even as bad as it seems
I wish that I'd just wake up
And find out that this was a dream
Wake up to you by my side
That's all that I'll ever need
I hope you know you're a queen
I hope you know you're a queen, yeah