Lil Xtra - Deathwish Lyrics

Lay In bed all day I'm broken like my empty promises

Once upon a long long time ago
I used to have these dreams I thought
One day I'd find my purpose
Over time I've realized I'm not
Conquering the things I fear
Capable of of breaking through
Lost the things I once held dear
I don't know what the f*ck to do

Left beliefs that once defined me
My best days are long behind me
Half the time I'm breathing In
I'm dreaming of the day I finally stop
Check my feelings at the door
I don't know what I'm fighting for
I used to pray things would change
But now I'm well aware they're not

I used to say
Everything will be alright
But it never will be
So I stay in my bed
I hate when you call
And say you should come out tonight
I just bought an ounce
I'm gonna smoke it instead
Yeah yeah

Stop f*cking telling me I'm fine
I hate the way you keep your cool
I'm aware you're always right
Go on and play me for the fool
Take the blood out of my veins
Go on do your worst to me
I wouldn't wish this type of pain
On my own worst enemy

Lay in bed but never sleep
I tried to fight but I'm too weak
And Every time I try to speak
I end up drunk and sobbing on the floor
Heard you're doing better now
It makes it worse I don't know how
The world keeps turning I can't breath
I just can't do this anymore

I used to pray that everything would be alright
But nothing could hear me
Cause there's nothing... Nothing at all

I used to say
Everything will be alright
But it never will be
So I just stay in my bed
And I hate when you call
And say you should come out tonight
I just bought an ounce
I'm gonna smoke it instead

I used to pray that
Everything would be alright
But it never will be
So I stay in my bed
I won't take your call
I'm not going out tonight
I'll never be alright
I wish I was dead

I used to think that everything would be alright
But it never will be
I wish I was dead