Lively tiller - Change Lyrics

Yeah, I f*cking hate myself, wanna break myself, hope that God takes me now
Yeah, I hate myself, wanna break myself, wish I could kill myself, wish I didn't have to
Deal with this shit
It was way better when you were here

I f*cking hate myself, will break myself, will take myself, will bury me in my wealth
With my Balenciagas
I'm sitting counting all the commas, I guess I'm in love with the drama, I'm also in love
With you

Damn, times like this I get lonely, and I just feel like a phony, show no emotion, don't
Let them know you weak, don't let them hate on me
Always come with a smile, but my smile gets broken, and I'm left in the open, I'm so drowning
I'm f*cking drowning

I can't breathe, these drugs killing me, long nights, recording rap all night
Trying to feel my feelings, trying to break some buildings, trying to build some buildings
Cause I'm trying to break myself and remake myself
Don't you get it, I'm trying to change, but people hold the past so close to them, and

I'm just trying to change for the better