Locust - State of Mind Lyrics

All that I've done and what I've came to be
Listen and take a seat
God as my witness? You'd better pray for me
I need a saviour
These demons don't play, they're chasing me
Embrace and feed em occasionally
But c'est la vie
I've got a meeting with my maker, and I'm never late
Choose or hesitate? I chose to set a date
I just make em think I've grown
And let em wait on changes that I'll never make
Reason why I'm favoured? Let me demonstrate
Mental stuck in mid December
Pencil to the page, engage and generate
Brain been feeling weighted, better ventilate
Opposition watching, then again they either bend or break
F*ck this entertainment
Gazing at this TV dinner should've been a steak
I come to senses, make amends with my inflictions
Keep my struggles pent so they don't blend with my ambitions
Turn the music up to throw me back at my intentions
And my vision starts to focus, I just hope I make a difference, said
The show's off, I'm going, my time is served
And I could sing a sad song, but for all it's worth
Oh, I'm laid back
Packed, and ready to leave
But feeling just woke
Do it one more for the dream, it go
Monopolize on a pile of trials and tribulations
Intimidated by nada, the fittest will survive
I've pushed the limits, my foot been in it, I'm still alive
Conscience free of guilt
Oxen-free, don't kill the vibe
You're now in tune with the rudest, realest
The dude is still as stupid ill, to feud it is ill-advised
To those who dispute it, come make your move if you feel inspired
I've started writing mileage on my shoes
Put the lighter to the fuse
All the money in the world couldn't buy me a day
It's fine
Cuz contemplation's a waste of time
I'm trying to make it higher, praying it's safe to climb
It seem life like being a bitch, I'ma make her mine
Calculated and cold
Act like I salivate salvation
Thou shalt name him the goat
Catching woes in place of patience and hope
But can't blame em, shit, I gave em the go
Well say no more except
The show's off, I'm going, my time is served
And I could sing a sad song, but for all it's worth
Oh, I'm laid back
Packed, and ready to leave
But feeling just woke
Do it one more for the dream, it go
Been through the fire, hale, rain and snow
I been broke
Booed off, no place to go
Oh, I'm laid back
Packed, and ready to leave
I'll do it one more time for the dream
I found myself out of step with my own reflection, confused
So deceptive to see that eye that's in front of your thoughts
And feel no connection cuz there's no expression
It's like succumbing to depression
But pretending every moment is a blessing
Inside I lessen every day, but stay to learn my lesson
I'm even second guessing when I'm in the right direction
Past shadowing my present
My smile is in regression
It's just the way I like it though, I'm kind of independent
I don't need no f*cking yes men
I need no love, it's lonely
But way I figure's "f*ck it", everybody round me phoney
So me against whoever, when you see me you can quote me
Most be just a gimmick, they ain't in it for the trophy
Don't insult me, just salute
Dirty jeans, clean up with a snotty rag
Truth be dudey wouldn't lollygag in a body bag
I've seen em fold like origami, I just calmly brag
And any like me just a copycat, yes'm and
The show's off, I'm going, my time is served
And I could sing a sad song, but for all it's worth
Oh, I'm laid back
Packed, and ready to leave
I'll do it one more time for the dream