[ Featuring MERNO ]
I've been through a lot of things in my head
Epilepsy in my dome I need to rest on my bed
Normal day at school until I feel uneasy no stress
I just gotta get through the day now God has me i'm blessed
Till a couple of minutes i'm fidgeting
Just unconscious no warning
I'm starting to think I'm dying
This pain is just terrifying
I'm escorted to the hospital
To see kids in my section
To find they have my condition
It's like my mind is prison
Epilepsy got me in these chains
I can't even drive
What if I'm just my walking down the street and I seize and die
Why did god just curse me and he didn't give a reason why
All these people praying but it seems that God does not reply
Or maybe I'm just blind
God if you can hear me just reply I really need a sign
I'm just stuck in fear
I got no hopes I'm bit by serpentine
I just feel like my life has no motion like I'm paralyzed
But I haven't had a seizure in months
But my fear still possess me like a man with a blunt
So I started listening to Vin Jay to cope
I'm inspired by music and his message is dope
I have also pushed some people away
Now they left cause I just keep making the same mistakes
I don't fear myself anymore cause I know who I am
I'm the guy keeps on fighting
I don't need no one's hand
I have finally let go of my pain
I won't bottle my emotions that's just causes more pain
I won't let the fear takeover my whole life not again
I can't live my life in fear I gotta stay in my lane
In the 5th grade my
Life changed the system tried to say
Something is wrong with me I went into
Battles thinking I could do this by myself
The more I tried the more they applied the
Pressure Kids in school always called me
Names no one to sit with at the lunch table
On and off relationships with my close
Friends eventually I just locked my self in my
Room and started skipping school my
Mind was playing games
With me started
Thinking of quitting I looked up and asked
For help but all I got back was the backend
My own ways changed me always feeling
Like I tried too much thinking Of Depression
And Anxiety Tried changing my passion
The opposition stood in my way Yea
Now there is no Fear in my heart or
Maybe I'm lying maybe im neglecting
The truth the bottle with all my emotions
Have drifted away a long time ago
200 hundred voicemails later finally
Realized the labels didn't f*ck with me
Asking myself this one question
Did you really have to be this way out
Of everyone why did it have to be me
I know it sounds selfish but I just want
Peace in my own mind the barriers I put up
Crumbled the people I called brothers
Changed everything I put my all into came
Crashing down and the worst one is
I Don't believe in myself I hope if I drop
A song everyone is astonished
And not get demolished
Somedays I'm just laying there and all
The dark thoughts start filling my mind
Thinking off all the shit I been through
And it just hurts inside if you can relate
Stay strong for me because your destined
To be great even if you believe it or not
