[ Featuring Rivilin ]
I feel like an idiot
Like every single word that out coming out my mouth is shit, lately
I ain't talking its a bitch
Cuz every single word I'm just depressing all my friends, shaky
I ain't wanna face this
Demons in me got a lot of faces
Oh no no
Mental state is straight shit
Some days I aint really think I'll make it
Oh no no
I know they wanna see me on a stage
But know that I am terrified when eyes are on my face
They say my music saved the day
But every single day I struggle with anxiety
I used to want my shoes yeah
But now I'm standing here and f*ck my head is still same
Thought it would've changed shit
But now I realize that happiness needs pain
Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess im nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know im nothing, so you drain me out to be reused
You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you
Till he comes back around and you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
I'm sick of screaming awake here's a big f*ck to you
Cus I am done with being on the low why you gotta hide me so
Like are you just embarrassed of me, I feel like I am nothing
I hear your ex-best friend talk about how much your happier
That's f*cking unfair when you left everyone in the gutter
I guess it's time I moved on and just learned to f*cking grow
I know I hurt a lot of people on this path you sowed
For me and my best friend, didn't know what love really was
I can't just blame you for everything but the drugs were your fault
I felt like I was euthanized laying on the cough half alive
Stuck in a tunnel vision overthinking trapped in my mind
Makes me feel like im redundant never wanna be by my side
You woke me up at 2 am to watch your veins just collide
How do you think it makes me feel watching a suicide attempt
You know it f*cked my mental state you watching me with contempt
Like was this my f*cking fault I always tried my f*cking best
I knew I wasn't enough I took my chances and I left
Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess I'm nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know I'm nothing, so you drain me out to be reused
You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you
Till he comes back around and you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
I'm sick of screaming awake here's a big f*ck to you
