lowkii - closure Lyrics

I want you closer
You're still in my head
My mind is torture i thought that by now
We'd be more important
You're what I wanted
Can't work this out
So what are we doing now
I want you closer
You're still in my head
My mind is torture i thought that by now
We'd be more important
You're what I wanted
Can't work this out
So what are we doing now
Complicated
With me that's just an understatement
We could've been something greater
You always felt underrated
Said I ain't appreciate it
Wish I was more motivated
I never thought u would be the one to ever leave me baby
I haven't been sleeping lately
I haven't been eating lately
Drowning in the deep end
You told me to put my feet in
I ain't know u had these secrets
If you told me that your love was hell
I'd have told you that I'm good
I've had enough so you can keep it baby
My aunt getting married and my momma found happiness
All of this love around me and somehow I'm stuck in sadness
Therapist asking when did all this start happening
Traumatized as a youth
I guess I ain't past it yet
Burying my pain down deep in the casket
I don't wanna talk about it
I don't wanna get dramatic
If I told you bout my past
You would say that story tragic
Got me bending over backwards But I ain't no acrobatic baby
I want you closer
You're still in my head
My mind is torture i thought that by now
We'd be more important
You're what I wanted
Can't work this out
So what are we doing now
I want you closer
You're still in my head
My mind is torture i thought that by now
We'd be more important
You're what I wanted
Can't work this out
So what are we doing now
The truth hurts but tell me what's true love
Tell me what truth does
Tell me who you trust
We could've died together like Romeo Juliet
Back in the Ford Escape we was watching true blood
Told you bill and sookie ain't have nothing on us
Left me in a bad place but it's all love
How's it feel having nobody to call up
That's the price that we pay for the fallout
True pain
But tell me why you changed
Blame it on the mood swings
Did you really lose faith
I been through the darkest nights Tortured like Bruce wayne
Down on my knees asking god for my due date
All these emotions are scary
I never asked to be here
I always thought that you'd carry Me back to life when my fear
Starts to eat all of my courage
Told me I don't have to worry
Would've been our anniversary But the story has veered
I want you closer
You're still in my head
My mind is torture i thought that by now
We'd be more important
You're what I wanted
Can't work this out
So what are we doing now