lowkii - lost (feat. Londyn Rayne) Lyrics

I know I'm not homeless
But I'm hopeless
And I'm just trying to cope
These lies in my mind
They blind me
I know I'm not lost
I'm just exhausted
And I can't afford the cost
Can't find my peace of mind
I'm lost

Antisocial don't get closer aye
Keep my heart up in a holster aye
I don't ever show emotion aye
Think I'm lost I think I'm broken aye
They don't love me and I know it aye
At least that's what I tell myself
I shouldn't feel the way I feel but I don't feel myself
Not to get dark but sometimes I just wanna kill myself aye
And that's a problem they hate it when people say it
But the problem is the fact that we feel the need to say it
And social media trapping us all inside of this matrix
And everyday I'm just angry and filled up with all this hatred
I pray to God just to change it
He told I have to face it
I look myself in the mirror and say that I'm gonna make it
But every time there's a problem I say I'll deal with it later
I'm lost and I need a savior
But maybe I'm just forsaken aye

Came to the realization I can't be saved
I'm lost forever a misfit who only misbehaves
I'm Lincoln burrows I tell myself this the prison break
I'm tryna break out a system that wants me in a cage
Nobody loves you until you dripping like lemonade
They asking who got the juice I got the Minute Maid
I'm so materialistic I hate who I became
I'm too concerned with the digits and only getting paid

Is depression possession
Or is it obsession
With negative thoughts
That keep you in suppression
My body is hurting
My mind is a weapon
I know that I'm great
But I cannot project it
These demons attack me
I don't feel protected
I'm feeling neglected
Did I miss the message
I just need Second
To get it together
I don't have forever
But

The darkness it clash wit the light
I can see the fear that sparks in ur eyes
I can see the devastation
Ain't no hesitation
Beauty comes with patience
That's just why I'm waiting
Cant get too complacent
I need motivation
Been through revelations
Trial and tribulation
Had that conversation
Way back in the basement
Changed my life forever
Now I'm really raging

Earthquake make the whole town levitate
Brand new mixtape make the lost girls wanna shake
4 in the morning getting texts from vanilla shake
Ain't no wedding date so I told her she gon have to wait
Never take a break cause my mind's always in a race
Tryna find a place where the lost ones can feel safe
I see heavens gates
At the same time I see the lake
I know if I make the wrong choice I'll be set ablaze
It's too much at stake
And I'm tired of making these mistakes
Feel like Norman bates
Ima psycho ima killer wait
Ain't no other way
Everyday I just try to change
I don't think I'm sane
Matter fact I think I'm deranged
Wanna text my ex maybe she'll make everything okay
Wish she would've stayed
That's the price that a sinner pays
Look at what I've made
All this tragedy and disarray
Take it all away
Think I'm lost and I can't be saved

These lies in my mind they blind me