L⇔R - Eclipse Lyrics

I'm not okay
Not all the time
For there are times
I lose my way
And that's okay
To frown or cry
Even when I don't why
I got nothing to say
Maybe I don't know who I am
Maybe I don't know where I'm going
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Maybe I am far from knowing
Maybe it's all part of a song
And the words will come together
And I''ll sing it one day
I'll sing it one day once I'm ready
Reaching for the love
To hold
And let it run inside me when I'm cold
Reaching for the stars
Above
To fall above my head so I can lighten up
Reaching for the love
To give
And make amends for leaving in the dust
I hope
I can't do much else
I wonder if I'm on my way to find a home
Or if a home even exists
Or am I meant to be alone?
Am I meant to travel far?
Meet some friends and make some scars?
Don't think
Am I meant to leave my family?
And let the forces take the lead?
Don't think
Is this picture of my life
So incomplete that I can't find
What I'm looking for?
And I don't know what that is yet
And the answer still seems so
Far away
Reaching for the pain
Inside
I know I hide
It's eating me alive
I'm reaching for the tears
Unseen
I haven't cried
Because of lies I spew, oh
Reaching for my bed
To lie
Forget the chills
And give in to the dark
I know
I might be better off
In the dawn
Reaching for my heart
It tries
To make me understand that I'm not fine
I'm reaching for my truth
My love
To wash me off the numbness in my heart
Reaching for myself
So I
Can learn to walk alone remembering why
I hope
I can't do much else
Maybe I don't know who I am
Maybe I don't know where I'm going
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Maybe I am far from knowing
Maybe it's all part of a song
And the words will come together
And I''ll sing it one day
I'll sing it one day when I'm ready