LRP Dyl - Ever Since You Left Lyrics

Ever since you left when I wake up it feel different
In my mind in my heart I feel a great division
I keep overthinking all the things that I didn't
I wasn't their for you and I shoulda payed attention
Calling your phone can't get no reception too far away we lacking connection
Don't know where you at, but I hope you in heaven
Without you to guide me, I don't know where I'm heading
Demons after me, I'm just praying it's a blessing
Keep going through a cycle where Ion learn my lesson
It really did kill me, I won't ask another question
I told em' all my wrongs and they used it as a weapon
Ain't get to say goodbye why I'm really upset
Said you had depression and this is where it led
You could give me everything, all the money and the bread
I would still feel this way like forever I would dread
Walking through this life without my twin, that's what I said
If you told me you were leaving, swear to God I would've pled
You took my soul with you like I mine as well be dead
I don't wanna feel this feeling, I get high up off the meds
Back to back days, I can get up out my bed
Thinking bout you
Ohhh
Thinking bout you
Ohhh
Thinking bout you
Ohhh
They telling you they're trauma when you have your own pain
You really try to listen when you know it's not the same
Nothing ever helps, not the money, not the fame
Thoughts taking over, put that gun up to your brain
If you start bleeding out, I'ma cover up the bleeding
Why should you stay? I could give a thousand reasons
I'd do anything to keep my dawg breathing
You playing with him, I bet you I'm squeezing
I don't wanna feel I just get too high
I don't wanna do it, but I do it to get by
I left everyone that was doing me right
I felt I needed y'all and it f*cked with my pride
I promise I'm not weird, I'm just way too fried
I don't need no help to myself, I lied
I can't even count all the times I cried
Bro hit me yesterday, said he losing the fight
Carrying your pain, you drown in it all
You feeling alone, you don't got no one to call
You down another pill, the only way to solve
They pumping out your stomach while I'm screaming at the wall
Got too many gone, no more early graves
Just love while they here, don't push em' away
If I left today, would you miss my face? would you post me and say I was great?
When we ain't talk in years and yeah that's the case
You don't gotta go right now
Told you that I'm here, I won't let you fall down
Just for you to stay, I'll take another round
Wish you would've told me what was really going on
Six feet in the dirt, thought we pose to live long
Long
Long
Don't go
Don't go
Don't go
Don't go
When I don't wanna feel, I just get too high
I don't wanna do it, but I do it to get by
I left everyone that was doing me right
I felt I needed y'all and it f*cked with my pride
I promise I'm not weird, I'm just way too fried
I don't need no help to myself, I lied
I can't even count all the times I cried
Bro hit me yesterday, said he losing the fight