The pain inside me
Cigarettes and pills help it hide
You know I tried
But something inside me is dying
Scars on my thighs
Crystalized, hungover eyes
Let's drink and party
So no one ever could hurt me
I'm outside
On the asphalt, looking at the sky
You know I tried
On the 9th of january I died
I'd never get help they say
Just want them to go away
Maybe if they would help I'd stay
I wouldn't have gone out this way
Stealing this shit out of people in need
Old enough to understand and smoke weed
Niggas left in the streets
You watched them bleed
You don't give a f*ck so you be watchin' them bleed
Looking in the mirror
And all I see is nothing
And everything's behind, fallin' apart and crushing
F*cking faggott can't even be straight
Praying for waking up one day and not be gay
Getting attached f*cking easily
And can fall in love like verbally
As I sing this shit, let my sorrow be known
I f*cked up this shit, though I feel so alone
But the walls I've built are crumbling within
In the crowd I'm lost, feeling like I don't fit in
(I don't)