Maceo Musa - Internal Pain Lyrics

Endless hole in my chest
It'd never be filled
Cause the last person I showed my wound to
Smiled then went for the kill
Now I'm finished
All by myself
Damn how can I be strong
I smile and people think I'm calm
But I swear I'm bleeding in my lungs
All my friends start to drift away
I have a boat trynna save the day
I'm looking out and they drown
They don't want no help
How can they be okay
Tell me why they leavin' me now
All by myself
Ouw
Everything goin' down
I just wanna survive this is wild

Thoughts in my head are the worst
Gotta watch what I say in this verse
Cause this ain't nothin to rehearse
No this ain't nothin you can reverse
But I just gotta express on how I feel
Hate people leave me all at the hill
Trynna figure out what should I give
Or what about me I should kill
I'm constantly looking for a skill
Need someone to just keep it real
I have ya back all the time
Why can't people seem to have mine
They keep me all in the blind
But I just wanna help 'em shine
Crazy yeah crazy times
They want what they can't give
I guess that's why my friends die
Because it's way easier than to live
Who tf really knows
I just really wanna feel
This happiness in the earth

But my heart stays on chill
Too much cold is it real
Too much cold got me ill