Irredeemable Video (MV)

One could say I followed You at first glance
I was praying to You at every chance
But I treated this like a spell
Just a way out of Hell
I sang the illusion of Your praise
Tried to say it was in good taste
But did I only want the high ground?
Or did Your grace just abound?
To all my flaws, I've turned my back
Tumbled as fast as I hid each crack
I should've known love
As You do
Do I risk it all and leave?
Or do I hold on to nothing?
Have I become Irredeemable
Like awakening my heart isn't conceivable
Am I too far gone?
As my mind and ego raced to push You out
My heart was numb to anything but doubt
But in a way I've tried to stay
Even if the ties are frayed
Been tied down by my reputation
Trying so hard to be an inspiration
That I threw You out the picture
Who did I leave hurting?
Am I wrong for wanting to evade
The consequences I could face?
Was ignorance truly bliss?
Do I risk it all and leave?
Or do I hold on to nothing?
Have I become Irredeemable
Like awakening my heart isn't conceivable
Am I too far gone?
I thought I could sustain this
On my own merit
I thought I could pull it off
I'm broken, I'm lost for what to do
I feel only part of me's with You
Do I risk it all and leave?
Or do I hold on to nothing?
Have I become Irredeemable
Like awakening my heart isn't conceivable
Am I too far gone?