Marcus Gray - Silent Night Scars Lyrics

[Intro]
Fake smiles under mistletoe
Secrets nobody wants to know
Christmas lights flicker like my soul
Trying to keep this shit under control

[Verse 1]
Silent night, but the pain ain't holy
Family dinner got me feeling lonely
Mama's cooking but her eyes look empty
Daddy's drinking, pretending he don't see me
Middle-class dreams wrapped in tinsel lies
Black excellence with hidden battle cries
Had to wear this mask since I was five
Acting happy while I'm dead inside

[Chorus]
Silent night, these scars don't heal
Christmas memories that I can't feel
Fake it 'til you make it, that's the deal
When December comes, nothing feels real
Silent night, these scars don't heal
Generation's pain that we conceal
Under Christmas trees and family meals
This perfect image ain't what's real

[Verse 2]
Aunties asking 'bout my college plans
While I'm drowning, can't nobody understand
Carols playing, but I hear static
Family trauma, shit's systematic
Mama taught me keep our business private
Daddy's silence turned to violence inside it
Picture perfect for the neighbors' eyes
While we're all just living separate lives

[Bridge]
December demons dancing in my head
Childhood memories I wish were dead
Sugar cookies leave a bitter taste
When you're living in this haunted space

[Verse 3]
Tree lights flashing like warning signs
Family portraits of better times
Wrapping paper can't fix what's broke
Years of silence got me feeling woke
Now I see through all this decoration
Generational miscommunication
Christmas spirit can't heal these wounds
When the truth stays locked in living rooms

[Outro]
Silent night, but the scars still show
Under gifts and mistletoe
Maybe someday we'll learn to grow
But for now, I'll act like I don't know