Mariah the Scientist - 40 Days n 40 Nights Lyrics

I put a hundred miles on the AMG tonight
And take it anywhere but home
Scent lingerin' all on my clothes
I turn the ringer on my phone off
I'll give you your distance
As if you've already made a commitment
To be someone else's
I must respect it
Though I'd be lyin' if I said I didn't want you to myself
When you looked me in my eyes and tell me that it's mine
I made them sacrifices
Spent forty days and forty nights
Withdrawin' from ecstasy
Gave you what was left of me
Baby, it's hard enough learnin' to let you go
Can't imagine teachin' someone else how
Hate the fact I can't leave you alone
Tired of lyin' to myself 'bout this
Feelin' that never dies now
Every night when I'm on my own
Only business livin' in my mind
Ever time I was ever told not to get my feelings intertwined
I should have listened
Now I'm in here missin' you

It's been a while, baby girl, I been out the way
I been tryna set things here straight
I got opp niggas too close to where I stay
And my brainwaves goin' eighty-eighty-eight
Baby, how come you never check on me?
How come you the first thing on my mind when I'm lonely?
I lost my lover and my homie
Oh, baby, hold me
You took the time to open up with all your scars and insecurities
But I wasn't ready for it
I took the time to learn your body
So I f*cked you like nobody ever did
And you wasn't ready for it
Top floor, penthouse in Miami, balcony
Does that bring back all your memories?
Is that the only way you remember me?
Oh, baby (baby)
Hunnid miles on the Wraith just so we can f*ck again (yeah)
All because of you, I can't love again
Do you ever think about what you did to me? (Yeah)
Spiritually and mentally
Oh, baby, I fell in love with someone who was in love with someone else
I'm cuttin' ties with everybody who ain't good for my health (shit)
I ain't even good for myself these days
Oh, baby, oh, baby, oh, baby
(I ain't even good-)