Paying Dues Video (MV)

When you're growing you're supposed to change
Had to cut off some bad habits they were in the way
Held me back from my purpose man I hate to say
The devil had a grip on me shit was not okay
It's cus he knew I had potential to open gates
When you face your pain it gives you uncanny strength
God's been speaking to me started to meditate
And doing that forced me to separate from fakes
My therapist would be proud but I don't need the praise
Just wanna prove it to myself that I can beat the pain
I was contemplating suicide like everyday
Then I took the pen and started to rewrite my fate
I ain't asking you for sympathy just wanna say
That we all be going through it so don't be ashamed
I could rap about the money that I wanna chase
Or the women that I played in my darker days
Say I'm a gangster just cus I prefer the gangster ways
And tell you lies about my chains that are actually fake
But today I feel compelled to keep it straight
And share some shit that we don't hear enough but need to say
I can't show you my true self if I don't share the aches
I just hope that my transparency will give you faith
That's all I'm trying to do that's why I even started rapping
Not for the cars or the money but for the passion
Look
Invest in yourself first and foremost
How can you expect to be your best with a torn soul
Find some meaning if you need some help roll a joint though
Put some music on let your purpose slowly unfold
Stop stressing just start grinding stack your money pronto
If it's toxic then you dodge it we stay in alignment
No time for silly games when you're tryna make a profit
No matter what you chase make sure that you keep it solid
Cus we can smell the snakes and I won't hesitate to stomp it
I'm living freely no regrets
Just always dreaming trying my best
To make it out of this mess
Now tell me if you relate
Cus we all crave better days
I found an outlet for the pain it gave me purpose
Then I realized my words could break some curses
Not just for me but for you long as you really heard it
Don't mean to preach but the truth is that we're all just human
Tryna make it by I put my lessons in my music
Yeah real one do I have to prove it
I could be arrogant but do I have to do it
Na
The real ones feel it if you don't then breaking news
I'm just here to share my truth and that's with or without you
Lost in my thoughts
I'm driving yeah it's two
In the morning
Plotting my next move
Now usually I would doubt what I could do
I thought there's no me if I went on without you
Then god told me I'm chosen that's the truth
So now I see I'm complete when I'm in tune
Like nipsey said don't share your struggle you're a fool
I said say less I heard your message now I'm steady paying dues