Mathis - Day 1 Lyrics

Went to isolation, thinking that I'm so dumb
Used to write my lyrics, now I wanna steal some
Cause I feel so boring, used to feel like I'm soaring
Used to claim they was snoring but I haven't been scoring
Tryna work on myself, but I'm too proud for help
Thought bout times with that belt, hanging all by itself
It's the ego I guess, it's the cause of my stress
Am I really the best? Then why am I so depressed?
Tryna savor the days, like it's giving me rays
Hope the come up come up, so remember my name
Hope I don't stay the same, hope this shit make me change
Hope my pain go away, but it made me today
Where I be without the beats and the comedy?
Bro those wildin out shows are apart of me
Tryna do this shit so hopefully I get discovered
Tryna do this shit so I don't go home to my mother
That's a disgrace for the kid from the place where the shit doesn't age and that nothing's ok
So don't tell me I'm lame while I go for the fame bro I'm up in this game and I'll make this shit change
Woo
Nothing is earned it is all passed down
But I need that crown
That's the reason I changed I'm way toned down
Should've seen my shit when wilding out in them crowds
Yeah
Get aggressive on a track they really boutta get it
Got to prove to these bitches that I'm not just a lemon
I got it myself my skills are my brethren
I'm boutta bounce my earth is my heaven
Grah
Tryna get deep with the lyrics get inspired but I'm f*cked up
Tryna get deep with the lyrics get inspired but I'm not enough
So I pull up with a gold chain tryna act like I'm not strange
Tryna act like this my thang, tryna act like no pain
But I hate this whole thang, wanna be me like do re
You always act like you know me, but I'll end up like Cobain

I feel tired every moment I'm awake
Tryna stay sober but there's too much pain
So I smoke another dab and say that it's ok
But it's not, I'm f*cked up
Nothing will change
Nothing will change
Nothing will change
Nothing will change

I have violent thoughts about myself
And I really want that to change
But I don't think it will
So for now
Let it drop

I feel tired every moment I'm awake
Tryna stay sober but there's too much pain
So I smoke another dab and say that it's ok
But it's not, I'm f*cked up
Nothing will change
Nothing will change
Nothing will change
Nothing will change

The fact is I know that I'm talented but I don't have enough confidence in myself to truly accept that
I know what I'm making is new and it's interesting I'm just trying to decide if it's interesting enough
I don't know
I guess that's what you're gonna find out