Matt B - Red Sky Warning Lyrics

I look up at the sky and see a trillion stars
I feel small on the planet in this universe of ours
I wonder why I care so much about everything
And then I spiral in my mind which is a scary thing
I hate when I think I don't leave room to breathe
Because I breathe then I see then I hate then I seethe
Then I cringe and I wait and I hate what I see
Vitiligo in my eyes a gap in my front teeth
A shitty f*cking person who would topple from a breeze
Jaundiced skin goblin who's nosier than thee
Who doesn't need 5 for fame he'd be okay with 3
And then he'd go and sell out all his largest dreams
Just to be a somebody to anyone he doesn't see
An- Relax
And then I put my pen to paper and I write to myself
Then I go back and change it to somebody else
I used to only play for what I always thought was best
But the best is finally here and I'm not happy what is left
I'm never satisfied. Some feelings still elude me
Nightmares every night dreams feel so elusive
I'm not afraid to fall I'm terrified to start
I'm not afraid I'll fail what if it all falls apart
When I finally get to where I want and still feel nothing with it
Every trophy in the case but it wasn't what I was missing
I'm aware of all the snakes in the grass they're always hissing
Just waiting for the moment when I'm done to start dissing
It's a vision this indomitable feeling
Yet I've never folded from life's abominable dealing
And it keeps knocking me around I won't accommodate quitting
I'm on the brink of losing it I'm never stalling or sitting
Relax
OK
Sleepy eyes realize as I watch the water rise
Wading through I sigh as I put on my disguise
It doesn't sit right but that comes to no surprise
With despise I watch as a bit of me dies
Woke up to a red sky warning
Try again tomorrow morning
Life's unfair that a statement I relate to
It's more so to others that I can't debate you
It's propagated seeds inside of my mind
That I should be happy I should learn to unwind
And just roll with it, I hate to roll with it
I feel like I'm fighting demons that are only ever soiling
My experience I just want to feel happy
But my emotions are uptight anger is snappy
Sadness is tapping regret is wrapping
It's wicked claws around my neck as I start to feel cracking
Deep inside of my bones as I go back and comb
Through every failed attempt but I refuse to atone
How many multiverse clones went on to go hone
And how many others just quit and went home
I feel even then I'm the only one in limbo
Both paths in my hands like an option akimbo
What should I do? I don't expect you to know
Maybe younger me knew another pass through I go
Sleepy eyes realize as I watch the water rise
Wading through I sigh as I put on my disguise
It doesn't sit right but that comes to no surprise
With despise I watch as a bit of me dies
Woke up to a red sky warning
Try again tomorrow morning