Matthew Fletcher - Clouded Nostalgia Lyrics

Marry Jane on my lips like I'm peter Parker
Drowning clouds away just to numb my nostalgia
Thinking back to times I wish I could forget
Thinking about those times I wish I'd regret

Regret is the biggest word of my past
Made all these mistakes that seem to last
Open casket and I'm diving fast
Dying inside with an unconscious laugh

If I died today who would really care tomorrow
Would you be there by my side
Or laugh upon my sorrow

Downed my self, unaware
That this life I left was just borrowed

I'm borrowing time until I run out
Got some premonitions
It's gonna be soon

I'm out and about and feeling dead already
My breaths getting shaky
And my pens getting heavy
Minds getting eager
And my dreams are steady
Hands on my heart turning just to let me know when it's ready

Preaching my testament just to show how my life went
Was any of it relevant or was all of it a misfit

Was it a misfit
Was it
Was it a misfit
Was it

As long as I can remember i've been an outcast
Kicked down laughed at, running out of gas
Every time I thought about it I wanted to outlast
My depression, and every fake underneath that mask

But I'm to the point where I just don't know any more
What's the point of my life, when so many died before

What makes me so speacial
Is it me, my family or my intuition
Or none of the above, maybe im just the one exception
Maybe I'm the one that gets to live to teach others a lesson

Existing just to exist is hard in itself
How am I supposed to feel when I've never felt before
How do I fear when fear is feard by itself
Fearful of, and grateful of

I fear my future but am grateful for my past
Everything I've felt and learned will help me with this task

As the time ticks my strength diminishes
As my mind goes soon as I finish this

Finish this