Matthew Fletcher - Therapy Session Lyrics

Everyone I look up to has been dying latley
Everytime I think about em I ask myself
Why am I still here on this earth
What's my purpose, what will be my rebirth

Will I have one at all
How could I know
Everytime I get up I always seem to fall

Back down
Yeah
Back down
Yeah
I always seem to fall

Should I even get up anymore
Lost my sense of purpose, like I ever had one before
Opened and closes, look inside my mind let me take you on a tour

Mind of a tourmented artist never rests
Been feeling this way ever since you left
Pulled my heart out, veins bloodied the floor
You walked all over me, and asked for some more

What else could I possibly have to give
Gave you myself, and every ounce of bliss
Always bargained for you to stay, you said leave or let me cut you deep

So Cut me
Cut me (yeah)
So cut me
Cut me (yeah)
You cut me deep

It was last winter when I finally let you leave
Lost myself and fell head first in to depressions deep
Deep ongoing never ending abyss
Falling and falling I held onto this

Life's window was peaking
As I began sinking
It took our separation to see the ultra light beaming
But that was never the end of it was it

Was it

It wasn't it, and I don't see how you could cope
Anxiety took over and your thoughts began to choke
Choking on your own thoughts wishing I could go back
Wishing I could get past that
Feeling of self doubt

Doubted you and left you with some burdens
Always pointed a finger at you, never knew who I was hurting
Was it ever me or was I always just you
Was I always like this or am I finally feeling your shoes

Oh I see
So your afraid of yourself and the lost of yourself
But what about others
And all that they intell

Well, lately I've been thinking that she's gonna outgrow me
Look at that smile, will it always be because of me
Because lately it's been getting harder to fake a smile
Falling deep into my head and i've been there for a while

When I fall too deep will she be able to pull me out
Or will it be too much, and then I slip and drown
Too much for her, and then she packs her things
Says goodbye and can finally spread her wings

Can finally spread her wings
She can finally
Can finally spread her wings
She can finally
Can finally spread her wings

This whole time have I been holding you back
Seen that message you sent me and I never hit you back
You asked if I was ok, as a matter of fact I'm not, but at least my minds still intact for now

For now
Yeah
For now
My minds still intact for now