Matthew Thiessen - Faking My Own Suicide (Demo) Lyrics

So, I've made up my mind/
I will pretend to leave this world behind/
And in the end, you'll know I've lied/
To get your attention/
I'm faking my own suicided/

I'm faking my own suicide/
Because I know you love me/
You just haven't realized/

I'm faking my own suicide/
They'll hold a double funeral/
Because apart of you will die/
Along with me/
It's kind of sweet/

I wish you thought that I was dead/
So rather than me you'd be depressed instead/
And before arriving at my grave/
You'd come to the conclusion/
You'd loved me all your days/
But it's too late/
Too late for you to say/

Because I'm faking my own suicide/
Because I know you love me/
You just haven't realized/

Oh, I'm faking my own suicide/
They'll hold a double funeral/
Because apart of you will die/
Along with me/

I'll write you a letter that you'll keep/
Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep/
You say aloud that you would have been my wife/
Write about that time is when I come back to life/
And let you know/
I'd let you know all along I was.../
All along I was faking my own suicide/
Because I know you love me/
You just haven't realized/

I was faking my own suicide/
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide/
Opened so wide/
Because you know/

Because you know you will never leave my side/
Untill the day that I die for the first time/
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh/
And we will cry/
So overjoyed at the love that's so alive/
Our love is so alive/