My Own Video (MV)

I cherish my breath, I'm grateful for the air
Self work showing up, I'm grateful for the year
Slow and steady is the pace but life is not a race
Haste makes waste, I had to take time and face
How undesirable patterns became commonplace
Not being who I aim to be made me think I was fake
Swore I was wide awake, I might've been sleep
Cuz I was blind to what I'm trying to see
Eyes open but out of the sun which produces vitamin d
In the shadows, my truth and light was hiding from me
In plain sight but I lacked focus
I had to change my point of view on what my blockage was
So I could get it cracked open
I got it unlocked so now I got it locked
Self deprecation gotta stop until my body drop
Cuz I do not wanna affect no one else
With my insecurities so I bes by myself
For all I've known
For all I've shown
For all I've grown
It's all my own
For all I've known
For all I've shown
For all I've grown
It's all my own
I'm not the kind of dude that's prone to solitude
It's something that I gotta choose so now I try to do it
On the other side, I don't let people close
I'm an enigma to the figgas who I see the most
I'm learning to open up by spending time with me
Peeping the value of my energy's economy
Analyzing my mind and pieces I ain't reconcile
Some of my illest motives formed when I was just a child
I was surviving AmeriKKKa's ghetto turbulence
Accustomed to being witness to all types of disturbing shit
Generational trauma gets stimulated when slugs fly
I'm like my father and my mama when the dove's cry
Bold dissatisfaction describes my disposition
I pose internal inquisition, tryna shift position
Breathing exercises fortify my mental health
And I find solid solace in the silence of myself
For all I've known
For all I've shown
For all I've grown
It's all my own
For all I've known
For all I've shown
For all I've grown
It's all my own
I keep getting better at getting better
Feel like I'm finally starting to get my shit together
I don't have all the answers, never needed to
Now that I see this I'm 'bout to reach a new zenith too
My homie asked me what's the plan, how I'ma do it?
I figure all I really need is my mind and my music
A journal and meditation instead of self medicating
Showing my inner being pure love and dedication
Devotion
I backslid but it's forward motion
Concentration bring me strength now I'm more than potent
I document my thoughts until it's called an opus
Fated to be since '81 at the autumn's opening
Child of the equinox
This is my heart you hear bleeding out of your speaker box
I don't need a lot, healthy living is wealth
Tired of looking towards the outer realm cuz I can see myself
For all I've known
For all I've shown
For all I've grown
It's all my own
For all I've known
For all I've shown
For all I've grown
It's all my own