Fix My Ways Video (MV)

Need somethin' to feel cause I been so numb
Hella down down, but the tears don't come
Keep a smile and act like it's okay though
Yeah, like it's okay though

Overthinking and oversmoking, I try to hide
From this feeling of feeling like I'm just dead inside
Going through all the motions and tryna keep that devotion
But looking back, cause I never leave the past behind
Still think of my homie who lost his life in the car crash
Like where did the time pass, we just some kids
Still stressing the pettiest things
Waking ups a blessing in itself, he ain't even get the chance to live
Attempted suicide twice in 2018
They ask why, man it's not what it may seem
Could've been me six feet in the ground
Leaving momma to grieve, because her son ain't around, but
I'm still here tryna make things right
Couldn't give up on myself, so I take this fight
Flashbacks and memories, they still haunt me
Talk to God and I really hope he still got me

Need somethin' to feel cause I been so numb
Hella down down, but the tears don't come
Keep a smile and act like it's okay though
Got a lot on my chest that I don't say though
Need somethin' to feel cause I been so numb
Hella down down, but the tears don't come
Keep a smile and act like it's okay though
Got a lot on my chest that I don't say though

Girls comin' and goin', like why the hell don't the love last
Maybe I move too fast, just slow it down
Truth is, I'm just scared to be alone
So I keep em' in my phone for the times when no ones around
Goin' to therapy once a week
Tryna figure out what's wrong, sittin' down just to speak
Wanna figure out my problems, but I run and never solve em'
Getting caught up in this cycle, then go vent on a beat, uh
Been broken and bruised, that's why we smoke and sip booze
Whenever we're in the blues, and I know it's the truth
That's why it hurts, rather hide and not fix it
Take the easy way when life is really pushing my limits
Always look at our flaws, and never see that we great
Neglect all of the highs, so all we do is feel pain
I'm the same, I should fix my ways
Sick of trying, in the end it's just always the same
I'm the same, I should fix my ways
Sick of trying, in the end it's just always the same
I'm the same, I should fix my ways, yeah
It's just always the same