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I'm smart enough to see difference between pain and reality
But took enough drugs to see that pain is reality
And I can't stomach pain because of stomach pains
Body, spirit, mind in different places at a time
I'm feeling different feelings and this shit is so sublime
Inspirations for pictures I painted in my head
Forget the visions and dreams created in my bed
Bloomed out of darkness and became a guiding light
But now the vividness of things became filled with blight
Baby just relax why you so uptight?
You're not the one dealing with the demons tonight
Inviting feelings of insecurities, you're the only cure to me
F*ck this shit ain't new to me
F*ck this shit ain't new to me
It finally settled in mixing drinks with sedatives
Not good for the settling now the pain is setting in
Where do I begin? Visions different and
Eyes is closing, join me in my dream state
Probably should've listened when you told me to stay awake
Memories they're crucial, worth more than pharmaceuticals
There's beauty in sorrow or whatever it holds tomorrow
It's in the eye of the beholder, like gun to a holster
I feel it getting closer, I feeling getting colder
What do I look like faking shit?
When I really faced this shit
Just cause I seemed unfazed and shit?
Tired of feeling lost use you outta desperation
Causing me struggles and sleep deprivation
I hear the reaper calling and death is the destination?
I won't give into your call
I won't let you take it all
I won't give into your call
I won't let you take it all
I won't give into your call
I won't let you take it all
Getting lost
I am lost
Getting lost
I am lost
I feel the love
I feel the hate
All these question I debate
Have no patience I can't wait
I fade away and I can't see the light
I fade away and I can't see what's right
I fade away and I can't see the light
I fade away and I can't see what's right