My Counterpart Video (MV)

My name is Meida, I look up to K-Dot
Now give me my paycheck, but not from this music
These lyrics, I use it
To relieve myself from myself
All these books on my shelf
Haven't done shit

Or have they?

Haven't I not been
Studyin n battlin'
My evil counterpart?

See him after dark, see him everywhere I go
He has tortured my soul
Got me feelin' so low
Twisted my being, distorted my seeing
I look in the mirror, I can't even see me

Who am I now?

God give me some clarity
Needing your charity
I am now perishing

PLP, the thing that I'm gonna be
That is the recipe
I'll find the rest of me

Just give me the time
And give me your patience

I need your love for this pain
That I'm facing
Running and pacing

Losing my breath
With every step

I cannot take it no more
God, what is in store?

I'm driving insane
Who is to blame?
I look at my hands
And I'm filled with such shame

Self-deception, no direction
A few syllables to define myself
In this moment in time

Leave it behind
How do I do it?

I fall to my knees
I beg and I plead

Father, my God
Help me just be
That man that I see
This man in my dreams
He's so out of reach

God, help me, please!

Looking in the mirror makes me see my enemy (See my enemy)
Looking in the dark makes me see my counterpart (See my counterpart)
And so they stare at this man that I've become (Man that I've become)
Little do they know that I've become so numb (I've become so numb)

My family and friends
Assume there's no end
"Let him just be
Let him just see
The flaws in his ways
Pray for his change
But love him either way
He is of our name
Remove of him of his shame"

God, I'm so lame
They show me such mercy
But I don't deserve it

Every day that passes
I am just learnin' that I don't deserve love
And I don't deserve
God, what is going on with me?

I just wanna flee
I just wanna see the better side of me

But I can't cause' he's gone
(He's gone)

I'm fallin' I'm fallin '
Just take me away
Somebody come take me out of this place

I'm tryna change
I can't stay the same
I can't place the blame
On anybody but me
Opposite of free
Teach me how to flee

And that's why I say
I am your flesh
I'm fighting your spirit and
I'm taking your soul
Just give me your heart and I'm fillin' that hole

I'm tryna decline, I wanna say no

Then he replies
Feed me or don't
One way or the other
I always take over
I always succeed

I grab my Bible, and I pray to God
Then I look at my face, he's clearly hurt and shocked
His fists are locked
His eyes are red
We're the same person but he's dying instead

I launched my knife
And watched as he bled

I say to him
You have led
My life to death
Enjoy your final breath

I get up and put on the armor of God
I look at the sky
I've dropped my weights, and now I can fly

Holy Spirit, fill my heart with purity and kill my insecurities!