Merkules - Reject Lyrics

The plot thickens, I'm lost drinkin' this hard liquor
I'm tryna put together pieces of this cropped picture
I wrote this record with my finger in a fogged mirror
And as soon as I was honest then it got clearer
They say I talk about anxiety too much
But sobriety's too tough and I can't hide it when I'm drunk
They say I talk about the pressure way too often
I was walkin' on the beach and found my message in a bottle
My head was full of sorrow and my centerpiece was hollow
I look happy on the surface but what's underneath the potholes?
It's not that easy just to change if I wanted to
When I maybe responsible for the pain that you all been through
I've been basically walkin' across the plank with no socks or shoes
But I hope you know I love you by the way that I talk to you
'Cause, the good days can turn into bad days
And the bad days make it hard to have faith

I'm a f*ck up
And I hate that I am this way
I'm a lowlife
I use a mask to disguise my pain
I'm a douchebag
I blame you 'cause I won't blame myself
I'm a reject
But I'm honest and I need your help
I'm a f*ck up
And I hate that I am this way
I'm a lowlife
I use a mask to disguise my pain
I'm a douchebag
I blame you 'cause I won't blame myself
I'm a reject
But I'm honest and I need your help
I swear I need your help

I know the truth, it's still as hard to face the music
Before I drink and light a smoke and then the combination's ruthless
You only see my scars but there's a lot of scrapes and bruises
I got what it takes to do this, I can't tolerate just losin'
I'm jumping over all the cracks in the sidewalk
I'm being honest, I'm not like these other rappers you follow
Got one hand on the rifle, the other hand on the Bible
I live my best life today 'cause it won't happen tomorrow
Been on the cusp of insanity
How the f*ck is this happenin'?
All a sudden I'm successful, gettin' money and travelin'
With my mother and my father and my beautiful wifey
I got my team and my day-ones, so f*ck you, you don't like it
Bitch, I'm busy being me, I'm never followin' these trends
I guess me being a reject is just part of who I am
Damn right, I'm a f*ck up
F*ck yeah, I'm a lowlife
I'd rather be the person I am than live your life

I'm a f*ck up
And I love that I am this way
I'm a lowlife
But it's fine, all be okay
I'm a douchebag
But I'm learnin' how to love myself
I'm a reject
It's okay, I hate everyone else
I'm a f*ck up
And I love that I am this way
I'm a lowlife
But it's fine, all be okay
I'm a douchebag
But I'm learnin' how to love myself
I'm a reject
It's okay, I hate everyone else
I hate everyone else