M-Hunt - Family Tree Lyrics

I don't know what damaged me, black sheep, I ain't how my family be
So you can't even say I was the apple that fell down from the family tree
My life just embarrassed me, I still get empathy, that's how my parents be
I know damn well that I will never be the normal one out the family tree
I ain't the guy put out to the universe fully
Personally, it's facade I use to put up with bullies
Been picked on since I was three and painfully looking back on all the shit
Man, I thought they was homies
Guess I just really wanted friends so I put up with those fellas
I hope they doing good, but I also wish them hell
But they what turned me into M-Hunt
So I guess they at least did that
Cause if it wasn't for the anger, probably never would've rapped
But going back to family shit, I told you I was different
My parents worked their ass off, my sister made the deans list (and)
Here I am still, packing up groceries in a store
They say all this is good for your lore
But I'll never tell the stories cause I'm only pulling whores
Who don't care about their future while I do but say I don't
And the one girl that I really do f*ck with, I ain't never enter in her home (damn)
I don't know what damaged me, black sheep, I ain't how my family be
So you can't even say I was the apple that fell down from the family tree
My life just embarrassed me I still get empathy, that's how my parents be
I know damn well that I will never be the normal one out the family tree
Glitz and glam for Instagram, that's only what I show
You don't see the tears I cry as I pose for this post
Cause am I gonna make it? Shit, I do not know
I need to drop the weed, but the demons take control
But if it ain't for the green, then a bottle is my go-to
My uncle died of a heart attack, probably weakened by alc
I miss him everyday, I still don't believe how
God could even take him and now
It's like I follow in his footsteps while he follows me around
I swear I see his shadow as the liquor gets poured down
My throat into my stomach till I pass out on the ground
I can't even help but think about my nephews that are coming into town
And I gotta act like I'm okay as I'm on the fourth drink
I swear I'm not addicted but you tell me what y'all think
Addiction's in my blood but I gotta weed it out
Maybe just another little Guinness stout (wow)
I don't know what damaged me, black sheep, I ain't how my family be
So you can't even say I was the apple that fell down from the family tree
My life just embarrassed me
I still get empathy, that's how my parents be
I know damn well that I will never be the normal one out the family tree
Oh, it's getting even harder now
They tell me that I can't back down
Step on necks to take the crown
And I'm so f*cked
Oh, it's getting even harder now
I try to scream aloud
But my voice just won't come out (and)
I am so f*cked