I Can't Do This (Interlude) Video (MV)

It took you until 22, 22, to go back to school
Thought you'd be at the supermarket your whole life
Clearly therapy has not worked
And your anxiety is driving me up the walls
It's been too much
It's been stressing me out
You can't handle it
You can't handle any of it
You still smoke weed
And this whole little music thing that you have going on right now
Yeah, alright
Good luck with that
It's never happening
Ever
Listen to me
You're a great guy, but I just
I can't do this
F*ck
F*ck
Ain't shit you can say to me that I haven't said myself five inches from a mirror
Through all the shit I ever went through, my mind's my biggest fear
I never know what direction it's gonna take me in
Today I was fine
Tomorrow could be breaking down
And all this trauma that I got might not seem like much to you
But to me, it's a lot
Probably why I smoke weed, all this pot
All the Zoloft, therapy, meditation, hip-hop
All I wanted was respect
Cause in school, I would never get a lot
I still think about those kids that always clowned me
Picked on me, and pinned me to submission when I was thin
Cause I didn't want to eat always f*ckin' upset
And it wasn't too long ago
Punchin' holes through the walls
Drinkin' till I fall
F*ck my family
F*ck my friends
I don't care
I'll end it all
What about my baby nephews
Are they gonna grow to remember Matthew
By the time your brain settles
Look at how much time has passed you
Look into a mirror
You don't recognize who's staring
Back into your soul
It's kinda scary
And all the changes that you don't see
To yourself, you're transparent
I don't even remember when my goatee filled in
Just happened
All these grays that I've been
Cutting out my hair's
Now I challenge
Six years I've been at this talent
And they still tell me I stink
Relationships I doubt it
Ever will happen
Find the one for me
Who can put up with all of me
And I'm still looking for bread to buy a snack
From the Dollar Tree
Cause all the money I make
I funnel back into the vision
But this tunnel is getting longer by the second
It's almost like I see the end
And it's starting to look majestic
And I get pulled back by the necklace
But it's like you almost expect it
Give me a sign that I got it
Cause now my pockets are skinny as anorexics
I'm scraping up pennies
To eat on my lunch break
While working OT on a Sunday
I already skipped breakfast
It's like you though you knew where you're going
But turns out you were headless
From hospital psych offices
No scientist, my hypothesis
I'm achieving everything they said
I couldn't and left me to rot
I joke I am not
I'll tag you punks when I'm posted up
One day
No matter how long it happens
I won't give up till I am collapsing
Life a Nate Dogg and Eminem soundtrack
College drop out
At least I wasn't held back
Went from picked on and shy to
The same energy as a Hellcat
Used to rap in high school
People told me"Matt
You shouldn't sell that"
Now I'm popping
Like a gel cap
Still broke though
Oh well that's all gonna change
Soon enough my wishing well at
Full capacity
I been praying like apostles
Lot of reasons to not
I'll never stop though
Put way too much into this game
To walk away
Even if I'm on ice like Gretzky
Wayne
I just can't
Walk away
I don't know
What it is
I'm just in love
With this game
I'm taking over this shit yo
You probably didn't even see it coming
A lot of trial and error
But great things take time