To what I thought I knew
Bid adieu
Yea
Chill
Today I feel I'm moving through emptily
While everybody searching and pleading for sympathy
Meanwhile I'm searching for energy & empathy
While the dredges of my mind keep tempting me
Like you ain't changed man you ain't no new entity
But I ain't the same now fatherhood's my Identity
So it's harder to connect with my past self
In bad health aimlessly wishing for mad wealth
But I had wealth that I failed to recognize
Instead I let them negative thoughts weapononize
But now I conceptualize the better vibes
& I do that so my queens can have better lives
So with the stories of the past I sever ties
Cuz if you always go down that path then you never rise
Don't fall for clever lies, pursue a new view
Seek the wise and be your own guru
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over
The more I hear I'm not my thoughts the more thoughts I got
I was lost in thought wondering if I lost or not
Realize in that time lost, I lost a lot
So I awake to the moment & I pause and stop
Cuz hope is in the moments
When you let go cuz you know you can't control this
Life, that is filled with changing circumstance
& rife with aimless aims to advance
I'm trying to find purpose in being purposeful
But life is unmerciful & strife is irreversible
And the easy route is usually best left alone
I'm getting down on myself so I check my tone
Why suffer needlessly when you can suffer peacefully
But why do I think peaceful is what I need to be?
It's because sadness and anger they come easily
But for my queens I'm trying behaving regally
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over
To hang over you must get a hold
To truly lead you must forget control
Cuz change is typical & so is vitriol
So to achieve best believe it be difficult
But does it have to be, can I embrace what challenge me?
Including confronting my loved ones mortality
I'm not ready but who ever is
So you better live, life no sedatives
So I'll appreciate the moment for what it is
& not my false construct or edifice
See to build up you gotta break down
Right now disrupt the foundation man I break ground
On a new view that struggle is beautiful
My only expectation is life is unusual
So I move the immovable & prove I'm renewable
Illusions are juvenile see reality's mutable
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over
To what I thought I knew
Bid adieu
To pursue
A new view
To what I thought I knew
I bid adieu
So I can pursue
This new view
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over
I feel we've gotten through the worst but it ain't over
I'm mentally exhausted this the hang over
This the hang over
Brain sober still feeling like a hang over