Am I Video (MV)

Oh God I've done it again
I said I'd walk with you and then I went and fell down and then
I sat there wonderin'
Should I even ask for you to come back over here and lend a hand?

Oh

So then I raised my head
And saw that You were standing there, Your face a smile, and then You said
My child, here, take my hand
But I'm so confused why would You come and do this all over again

Oh

I try to hold your hand while I am walkin' with the devil
And my knees just keep on wobblin' but the ground I'm on is level
I can't keep this up I'm stumblin'
When I think that I am steady again
I spin to try to lose my step cause I think it might be fun

Am I really Yours?
Cause really, I think that I might be someone else
Am I really alive?
Cause really, I don't think that I'm living well
Am I really free?
Cause really, I seem to like these chains I've got
I Am, am I Yours?
Cause I'm a mess

Oh God I don't understand
How I could claim to love You as I consciously give in to it
And think I can try again
But then I get my chance and I tell myself that there's no other end

Oh

I try to hold your hand while I am walkin' with the devil
And my knees just keep on wobblin' but the ground I'm on is level
I can't keep this up I'm stumblin'
When I think that I am steady again
I spin to try to lose my step cause I think it might be fun

Am I really Yours?
Cause really, I think that I might be someone else
Am I really alive?
Cause really, I don't think that I'm living well
Am I really free?
Cause really, I seem to like these chains I've got
I Am, am I Yours?
Cause I'm a mess

So then is this who I am
A hypocrite, a hopeless fool, a liar who professes You
I mean look, You desire for me to have a heart of integrity
In the inner me but my mind is weak and constantly refuses to think that a
Wretch like me could be made to see when my eyes are charmed so easily
But You died and then You rose again to wipe my stains from who I am
And cleanse my heart much whiter than snow so the world would see and all people would know
A love that covers over pain and takes away the guilt and the shame
At a cost that we could never pay it's a gift from You I know that it's true
But I spin to try to lose my step cause I think it might be fun!

Am I really Yours?
Cause really, I think that I might be someone else
Am I really alive?
Cause really, I don't think that I'm living well
Am I really free?
Cause really, I seem to like these chains I've got
I Am, am I Yours?
Cause I'm a mess