Memories Video (MV)

We live in a world where change is the only constant
But not every change is of conscious
Father abandoned me
Mother couldn't handle me
And eventually both of em vanished
A child alone, somehow I managed
Days at a time, I wondered if my mother would come for me
Maybe that's why older women comfort me
During that time is when my daughter would come to be
Having no parents was tough on me... mentally
Then I had an epiphany
I would take things differently initially
And maybe things could work out eventually
But I never saw the obstacles ahead of me
May 4 was something unexpected
And now the same one she took is the same one she neglected
Still I was betrayed by the system, but I'm not the victim
I'm a daddy determined, and failure is a word I'm never learning!
So I keep persistin
Path of least resistance
No need to lie about the tears I cried
Just know the next thing I release is the anger inside

I just wanna be free of the memories
Free of the pain
Free of the misery
Free of the suffering
I just wanna be... free free free
I just wanna be... free free free

Let's rewind a minute... talk about the menace
I refuse to follow in my his footsteps
Wherever they may be
Can you say that you blame me?
He left me alone, age 3
Couldn't deal with my mom, thought he should move on
We met again at the age of 11
But my mom sent me there
My anger in question
Said I was troubled minor
So she meant to live with a stranger in Carolina
My brother as well
But we didn't always go together
In fact, this was a single occurrence
He was a blessing and I was a burden
So she sent me to boystown
And I'm filled with 2 voids now
An absent father and a careless mother
She taught me hatred
Then sent me away for the summer
Told me he was nothin
But I remember he called one time
How'd he get the number?
I asked him why he left
He told me there was nothing left for him in Texas
So he started racing for the exit
I thought we needed a father, but... I guess I stand corrected

I just wanna be free of the memories
Free of the pain
Free of the misery
Free of the suffering
I just wanna be... free free free
I just wanna be... free free free

My father was absent even when I was present
Off at a pool league
This was a valuable lesson
Time with your child is precious
For me... each second counts as a blessing
But my mom was no better
Looking for love on the internet
Hoping we don't interfere
Thought she found love
Decided to leave
It was just us, my brother and me
I was barely 16
Babies raising babies
That's how my daughter got conceived
All of a sudden I'm irresponsible
That's all she could see
Next thing I know... her and my brother
They gave me a choice
More like an ultimatum
Abort or adopt
No exaggeration, that quote is verbatim
They tried to convince me
But I refused to hear it
Even with the whole world against me
What happened next still puzzles me
Without notice and after delivery
Their minds changed in a second
My daughter transformed from a curse to a blessing
But that's something they'll never speak of
A memory I'll never be free from
And as a father they thought I'd be a failure
But I exceeded expectations
Overcame adversity, achieved greatness
And still got treated like a life wasted
But it's okay, I'm over the hatred
Because I had a pastor who loved me
Like my mother was supposed to
Like my father should've chose to
But neither seemed to know how
Got me traveling down this road now

I just wanna be free of the memories
Free of the pain
Free of the misery
Free of the suffering
I just wanna be... free free free
I just wanna be... free free free