Mid Reflection - Migraine Lyrics

Now i'm stressing as i'm stepping to the edge of the cliff
And tempted to exit this wreched abyss with seconds to live
So don't you tell me that depressions a myth i can never resist
Getting high to block it out but i'm not getting a lift
Cause now the plane has landed with nothing to make a stand with
As soon as i'm losing count of every single day i planned it
But until my brains distracted from the constant pain and anguish
I'm stranded up in a place with no escape from taking tablets
I blame the antics on failure and f*cking it up
Stuck in the mud now i've realised enough is enough
But i ain't the type to take a life with dozens of drugs
As i would rather get decapitated covered in blood
There's very little chance of me preventing this
How are you meant to live when lacking strength to give
My head is in a daunting place and i don't wanna live another boring day
Commiting more mistakes i can't afford to make

I had some battles with pills and the pills lost
Yet i'm still cross i can't be killed off
Haven't felt a great deal of pleasure in so long
From pressure i don't want whenever it goes wrong

My life will never be the same because i let you lead the way
I think you better keep away cause now i'm mentally insane
I'm gunna being crazy till my energy is drained
Or till i'm dead beneath a grave and i won't get to see a day
As my vains are cutting thin from all the pain and suffering
And every day it's doubling with the way it's troubling
The way the brain is functioning so you could say it's buffering
But at this rate it's struggling and likely ain't recovering
The head hurts and gets worse at alarming rates
Can't escape the past mistakes to hard to face
I start the day wishing for a chance to change
As all this overthinking seems to harm the brain
With serious phasing while experience taking
And merely awaiting to see this period changing
I'm deteriorating and it's really degrading
Listen clearly to this theory can you hear me complaining

I had some battles with pills and the pills lost
Yet i'm still cross i can't be killed off
Haven't felt a great deal of pleasure in so long
From pressure i don't want whenever it goes wrong

The doctor said to take a couple doses a day
But none of these negative thoughts are going away
Will there ever be a time where i will notice a change
Because i don't know how much longer i can cope with the pain