Mirage - A King Lyrics

Imma use this instrumental, imma use this track
It will take us on a journey, it will take us right back
To the days all this shit began
Honestly looking back wish I just ran
Because I've f*cked it all
Honestly I'm praying to both peter and Paul
And I gotta give thanks to my elders
And I'm worried I will never be an elder
So mum, and dad I'm sorry for all the shit I've done
You guys don't know all the shit I've been on
And you guys probably just wish I was gone
Following the dreams I said I have
Following the passions you know have
But I don't
I don't
I never do anything I need to do
Say I will have a drink but that's become a few
And now I'm popping pills
And I'm masking the pain by chasing thrills
Bag another bitch and bed her down
Silence is the most deafening sound
And I'm alone
I'm alone
Never understood where the pain came from
Never understood why I'm twisted and my heads gone
But I know I can pour another drink
Find it easier if I don't have to think
But f*ck it's what killed.my uncle
And f*ck I miss my uncle
F*ck, yeah f*ck
But at the end of it all, I want to see another day
The darkness comes but the light will stay
I know I've got hope in my life
Even on days when I have no fight
And I will carry on
And I will be like kong
A king a king
And I'm hoping these bars will someday pay
Will help make these stomach cramps go away
And I won't have to work two jobs
All while I'm being looked down on by snobs
And I will be self made
And won't judge my worth by who I've laid
A king a king
You see all my life mans been hated bullied and shit
And I was against the wall
And I had given my all
And I was looking to escape this hell that I was living
I guess that I stopped seeing the love that some people kept giving
And I, and I
I need to shout out nephew
Love you kid, always bless you
Hope you know that one day
When you can spit bars you know your way
I will give you this kingdom
You will inherit this kingdom
And become a king