Mirage - Deteriorate Lyrics

There are thoughts in my head
That I wish I could forget
So much I've tried to put in the past
I don't think I can move on from yet

Constant fear of the next episode
Days or weeks
That's not something I get know
Maybe this time I'll finally take control
It can't happen again if I just end it all

So as I go on
I forget nothing and everything
Try to make it up as I go
But the truth is I'm fading

I'm not asking for help
I don't need saving
Save your prayers
For someone with less understanding

I'd trade it all for a piece of mind
Something to help the ups take
Take away the filth inside
I'm running out of smiles to fake

Grasping at something just to fill the spaces
I'm getting so tired of always saving faces
Free me from the darkness inside
I want nothing more then to escape this life

So as I go on
I forget nothing and everything
Try to make it up as I go
But the truth is I'm fading

I'm not asking for help
I don't need saving
Save your prayers
For someone with less understanding

I'd trade it all for a piece of mind
Something to help the ups take
Take away the filth inside
I'm running out of smiles to fake