Last night, I was stuck up my thoughts then I realised
I don't really feel the same with you in my life
I should listen to myself not the bad advice
Bad advice
I
Walk around like we're both strangers
Acting like we didn't share time
Bad advice we got bad advice
From the people sitting on the outside
Looking in must be so blissful
A taste of pain, not the whole fist full
Saying we should cut each other off but
You're the one who has to cut the ties
Felt lost when I found you
Because your family struggled like mine
Work in the week getting up at like five
Family to feed so they had to provide
They did what had to so we could survive
So I just can't relate to a pocket that thrives
Maybe that's why I just struggled inside
On the day that we ended I wish That I tried
I tried to replace you
Thought I got what I needed was lacking in closure
Harder alone even harder when sober
I miss the nights that we spent on the sofa
Was easier then, now I don't know you
I know where you are but I wish you were closer
Numbing the feelings I never could show you
Love is a drug that will always control you
Last night, I was stuck up my thoughts then I realised
I don't really feel the same with you in my life
I should listen to myself not the bad advice
Bad advice
I feel alone late nights control me
On my own let the pain absolve solve me
Freefall out of love chains hold me
I don't know you anymore that's the old me
These chains hold me
Better here than being there for you, I feel separated
Mind and soul In two different places
Free falling to my destination
Live my life by what's real and fake
Leads to overthinking what I'm contemplating
So I'm contemplating what I'm overthinking
Just to backslide on bad information
That's bad advice
I got bad advice
Thoughts in my head keep me up at night
Like change is weird when you know It's right
Feel guilty Just having piece Of mind
I tell everyone give me some space
Then feel alone when I'm watching them fade
Know that I'm really the one I should blame
Getting off track what I'm trying to say is
Was I there when you needed it most
Don't know why I care I just needed to know
Got my life in the air feel the breeze when I ghost
Swim deep in my thoughts no need for a boat
Feel out of my depth At the same time know it's my fault
Drown all my pain In the shame I hold
Live life on the edge of a knife I know
That a cut runs deep as the story it's told
Last night, I was stuck up my thoughts then I realized
I don't really feel the same with you in my life
I should listen to myself not the bad advice
Bad advice
I feel alone late nights control me
On my own let the pain absolve solve me
Freefall out of love chains hold me
I don't know you anymore that's the old me