Modern Drawing - Tired of Drama Lyrics

Lost in the darkness, stressing about this
I gotta go out, I gotta do shit
Anxiety demons trying to kill me
I let them get close, the fault is my own
And really

Maybe I spend too much time inside my room
And that's why I'm doomed
At least it feels like I am
Or maybe I just lack a certain confidence
That I need to bloom
Hope I find it somewhere soon
(Same shit, same day)

It becomes a circle, a vicious cycle
Why don't I find time to hang out with Michael?
Hike up a mountain, or shop for some records
Go to a fountain, toss in a coin
Jump in a mosh pit, shake at the knees
Or walk right up and tell that girl I wanna dance
Stop dwelling in my head
Excess analyzing, textbook overthinker
It's not too surprising at all

Maybe I spend too much time inside my room
And that's why I'm doomed
At least it feels like I am
Or maybe I just lack a certain confidence
That I need to bloom
Hope I find it soon
Well, if I play it right
Maybe you'll stick around another night
Everyone knows I'm scared to be alone
Still they say they're tired of the drama
And save it for my mama at home

So you insist I'm the life of the party
I tend to believe that I'm probably the death
I've built up a raft and I'm floating, but hardly
The comfort of safety has jumped overboard
With no life vest

Maybe I spend too much time inside my room
And that's why I'm doomed
At least it feels like I am
Or maybe I just lack a certain confidence
That I need to bloom
Hope I find it soon
Well, if I play it right
Maybe you'll stick around another night
Everyone knows I'm scared to be alone
Still they say they're tired of the drama
And save it for my mama at home

Maybe I spend too much time inside my room
And that's why I'm doomed
At least it feels like I am