I Had To Video (MV)

I did it only cause I had to
If you think thats bad catch me in a bad mood
I did it only cause I had to
I been stuck to this my whole life like a tattoo
'Cause I had to I ain't that dude
I've been past due but who asked you
'Cause I had to I ain't that dude
I've been past due but who asked you
Been a few days ever since I've showered
Somethings in control I'm in its power
Can't stand up to it I've been a coward
Just spit hot one take I feel like cowherd
This the only thing I got thats right
Can't even bring myself to life
Remain cold never felt a light
I lost my soul now its out of sight
Can't escape without this strife
In my place still got no stripes in
Till I fade away I will decay
It's safe to say I've gotten ripe
My mind is rotten
Don't know what has gotten
Into me often
But when I'm dropping
I don't feel any satisfaction
But nowadays ain't sad it happened
Been in this enough more than a habit
I ran out of luck and now I'm strapped in
If it's up its stuck now I don't give a f*ck
I'm my biggest enemy so now what's cracking
Ha ha ha that's my head that's laughing
Dealt with plus dread and now I'm trapped in
If you been fake then bitch don't tap in
You do not relate ain't need your clapping
Lost inside the void
Nowadays that's my biggest joy
If you help me I'm annoyed
Everyone around me I avoid
I did it only cause I had to
If you think thats bad catch me in a bad mood
I did it only cause I had to
I been stuck to this my whole life like a tattoo
'Cause I had to I ain't that dude
I've been past due but who asked you
'Cause I had to I ain't that dude
I've been past due but who asked you