Mood - Purpose Lyrics

I'm okay at least momentarily
For a minute I thought they'd have to bury me
Still got a sense it's about to go downhill
In the present tense what I felt is now real
Inhibitions take away the time to myself
Blurry vision whats in front of me I can't tell
Never listen just rewind I can not propel
I can't risk it I don't even know my show well
Who am I do I exist feeling like an empty shell
I'll oblige if this persists ima need henny spilled
Can't lie I'm in a mist I'll stay there if you tempt me well
Still provide I never switch loyalty is deadly still
Look over my shoulder I guess I'm never alone
I can't push a boulder and I'm also letting stones
Hit me till I'm colder then one of my steady flows
Guess I'm getting older wear my burdens like cologne
Can't describe my purpose
In due time I worsen
Didn't think it'd be this hard
I can't find my purpose
Can't describe my purpose
In due time I worsen
Didn't think it'd be this hard
I can't find my purpose
I can't yearn dread is always first in
Getting burnt and I keep on hurting
What's to learn I never feel certain
My concerns make me close the curtains
I wanna hear the birds chirping
Get my cheeks smirking
Wanna keep burning
Get the clock turning
Cause I've been out for a while
I'd be down for a smile
One more round of denial
Be around to raise my file
People ask me what's new never have the right words
I'm depressed yeah boo hoo swear to god it's light work
Off my chest like who knew maybe try to write first
They prolly think I'm coo coo any time I might burst
And that's my main issue
Say I don't want pity but I need tissues
Self guilt now I'm shitty I'll never feel blissful
I built my own city this is a visual
Can't describe my purpose
In due time I worsen
Didn't think it'd be this hard
I can't find my purpose
Can't describe my purpose
In due time I worsen
Didn't think it'd be this hard
I can't find my purpose