Mpth - Smile Lyrics

Yo
I'm alive
Yeah yeah
Have you ever felt the need to look yourself right in the eyes
And cry beg yourself to stay alive I have
Have you ever been so low you felt like you didn't know
If you were already dead or in your bed asleep for days woah
I have never been the type to fake my smile fake my pride
I have always been the realest one getting pushed aside
I have tried to fit in didn't work for me so now
I hide in my raps and rhymes like I'm a metaphor come to life
Yeah and people say they want me to be nice
But happiness is something that you feel inside Yo
You expect me to be grateful look around this race is hateful
Why should I pretend I'm not an actor in your fable no
Woah let me be myself yo let me spit my truth yeah
Let me build my wealth I'm not asking you for help
So don't offer it this shit is my offering
If I do not make it out then put this on my coffin yeah

I survived suicide
I survived I survived
I survived suicide
I'm alive yeah
I survived suicide
I survived I survived
I survived suicide
I'm alive yeah

Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
I'm alive

I remember that night like it was just yesterday
My wife had just left me I felt like she got the best of me
It was all my fault that's what she said to me
Then the voices crept in and said you're better off dead to me
I took all those pills in hopes I'd die in silence non violent
Women tend to not want a mess left after dying
But they were lying I'm a diamond made from all the pressure in my life
It has always been kinda dark inside
Everyone livin here livin in sin
People hate each other cuz they're livin just to win
Yeah this anger gets to me I wish I felt differently
But honestly this pain has made me into what I need to be
A beast
Now I'm doing me
I'm not afraid to feel all these things and I'm not afraid to speak
You do not know what goes through my head And I'll live it up until I'm dead
My purpose has been found I'm here to write this shit down and spit it out so
Turn the music up so loud that they can't hear you scream
Never doubt yourself never doubt your dreams
I believe in you and if you can relate then let us have a play date with our demons
Turn this shit up and scream it out loud cause this is why im breathin yeah

I survived suicide
I survived I survived
I survived suicide
I'm alive yeah
I survived suicide
I survived I survived
I survived suicide
I'm alive yeah

I survived suicide
I survived I survived
I feel like I'm dead inside but I'm alive